How I feel, read my lips.

chapter 121 : Emo-ing Part 2

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i changed my layout. so yeh no worries, ur pc x rosak and x cacat cause i just changed my layout pagi tadi. haha.
i changed it to white color cause right now im so emo. emo bukan black color ke? haha. or something like dark to do with it? but mine is suci. perfect! so dia turn to white la. hahaha.
and my sooo called friend ni kan. we got a lil bit conversation before i went mandi. haha.

B : white + pink = cant be you la
F : so black + pink = can be me la? haha.
B : ya. cause white x macam u la.
F : so nak ckp black sesuai dgn i? nak ckp i jahat? haha.
B : maksud i bukan u jahat. ala u paham kan?
F : yea yea. i paham. haha -.-

yeh. sumthin cmtu la convo nye. haha. hampeh gila -.- biala nak jadi angel skit? hahaha. u just jealous. =p
at this moment i dun wanna revert to the old template cause i still in emo condition. LOL. so yeh. cheer me up, people! woots :D
lately, im trying to get myself happy. im trying to be happy! but i think i just pretending to be happy all the time? :(

i try to make new friends in myspace. try to talk more more and more? try to laugh my ass off? try to do funny and random stuff? yeh =.=
but still im not happy. omg. what happen to me? am i dead? or the feeling already dead?

and yeh people, im addicted to "Two is better than one". Today, i hear dat song more den 50 times. i heart it over over and over again. it's a nice song btw (: agak calm when listen to it. LOL.
and d lyrics is nicee too!
me and ariff had fight the whole day. sigh. small matter je. tp bila da besa dan besa. bertambah besa dan meriah la -.-

my sis told me, just ignore him. aha. i wish i could but its not that easy cause we have been together almost 5 years. its like.. we share everything. we had fun together. but sad. why we turn into this? sigh.

i wish i can runaway from this mess. save me before i get over you :(

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chapter 117 : Looking for you.

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To the ones I loved, but didn't show it enough.
To the ones who cares, & who were there from start.
To the love that left, and took a piece of my heart.
To the few who'd swear, they'd never go anywhere . . .

where are you now?
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It takes a minute to like someone,
an hour to love someone,
but a lifetime to forget someone

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chapter #82 : When you love somebody,

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im not in the mood actually.
i feel like nak demam. sigh.
and i feel so berdebar-debar right now.
tak sedap hati feeling come to me like so many times. gosh.
in my mind, something gonna happen?

leya called me.
and she broke up with her boyfriend.
when i heard her voice, she sounds so happy?
cause she really dont care bout her boyfriend btw. haha.
her boyfriend is such a JERK!
when she tell me the story,
sorry to say. but this is the fact, okay?

BOYS ARE SUCH AN ASSHOLE.

her case same like mine.
but her situation lil bit diff with mine
which her boyfriend already got a girlfriend before he met my friend (i guess?)
but the plot still same (:
soo.. the guy wanna break up. maybe cause dah KANTOI?
then the girl call my friend, so they got talk, talk and talk.
so, my friend agree to break up.

my case, sayang kantoi with me.
but i never ask him to break up.
blablablablablablablabla....
between my case and her case, mine is more complicated. hahaha.
but she can handle this prob.
me? no way. i cry everyday, every night.
honestly, im a sensitive person. and i cry alot. so what?

i just hate people who tell lies..
i know, i also not really good.
what i mean is in ur relationship.
when you love somebody,
be honest to your partner.
never lie to them.
what is the point if you lie to them?
you just create a new prob.
and later you gonna stress cause cannot tahan with it.

i tell this cause i already learn my lesson.

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chapter #20 : a walk to remember

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chapter #17: My mind tells me to give up

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Time passes as I watch you walk away,
The tears start to express what i cannot say,
You have turned your back to me forever,
I cannot bear to live again, never.

Emptiness and darkness
envelope me from everywhere,
Loneliness and regret consume me,
I'm unable to share,
I'm alive and I'm still breathing,
And yet, my heart seems to have
stopped beating.

I start to wish if we had never met,
The affection and care
u showed me all gone,
What choice do i have,
but to sit back and mourn?
I'm sick and tired of being alone,
My dreams are all battered and torn,
My trust, my faith seems
so meaningless now,
I'm unable to take this pain anymore.

Yet my heart tells me to forgive,
To let go of the past, to let the love live,
But a broken heart cannot think any good,
It's probably reacting just the way it should.

How you can change
all those lies to nothing, just fun.
It hurts to know how
I've been played with and toyed.

I carry my broken heart with me,
It's mending, I'll never get to see,
Looking back at you,
I will try to refrain,
I'm not falling for it ever again.

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chapter #16 : I don't know anything at all

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IM PERIOD -.-
i really cannot control myself. so i can "boom!" just like that.
and easily to get hurt.
so, please. watch ur words.
seriously, im in emo condition. tahap critical.

this post shud be 04 Nov.
too bad i cannot online yesterday.
internet sucks. no connection.
so yeah. since i cannot online...
i gt nth to do... i found this file in my documents.
hmm.. its my chat logs.
i also dunno i gt save all the history?

i decide to read it.
even i know it gonna hurts my feeling.
.........
my tears rolled down.
gosh. i still cannot forget bout the past.
everyday i try, its gettin hard.
like, its stuck in my head!

why shud i think bout him?
if he already forget bout me. sigh.

I'm trying really hard not to cry over you
because every tear is just one
more reminder that I don't know how to let you go.

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chapter #14 : it's over.

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I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

today, when i wake up
suddenly, i remember dis word, "ilyvm"
gosh. this is hard for me. really hard.
i try to be strong and try to face it.
but i cant. im so weak. i cannot forget all the memories. it just, hard.

yesterday, i told leya bout this.
thanks babe for being there for me.
she understand me. she know how i feel.
thank you for your advice, your support. i really appreciate it.
and thanks to wida too. for being a good listener.
i love you guys to death <333

"It takes a couple seconds to say Hello,
but forever to say Goodbye."

the quote. it so true.
when i think bout it again,
only god knows how i feel.
it hurts me alot. im stress.
maybe i should try to face it slowly.
like what leya told me to do,
"try it slowly. you x boleh erase everything, poof! just like that"

i still cant believe.
everything juz nice. perfect.
and suddenly, .....

i admit that im happy when im with you
all the sweet time. i wont forget.

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chapter 121 : Emo-ing Part 2 Dec 19, 2009 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) i changed my layout. so yeh no worries, ur pc x rosak and x cacat cause i just changed my layout pagi tadi. haha. i changed it to white color cause right now im so emo. emo bukan black color ke? haha. or something like dark to do with it? but mine is suci. perfect! so dia turn to white la. hahaha. and my sooo called friend ni kan. we got a lil bit conversation before i went mandi. haha. B : white + pink = cant be you la F : so black + pink = can be me la? haha. B : ya. cause white x macam u la. F : so nak ckp black sesuai dgn i? nak ckp i jahat? haha. B : maksud i bukan u jahat. ala u paham kan? F : yea yea. i paham. haha -.- yeh. sumthin cmtu la convo nye. haha. hampeh gila -.- biala nak jadi angel skit? hahaha. u just jealous. =p at this moment i dun wanna revert to the old template cause i still in emo condition. LOL. so yeh. cheer me up, people! woots :D lately, im trying to get myself happy. im trying to be happy! but i think i just pretending to be happy all the time? :( i try to make new friends in myspace. try to talk more more and more? try to laugh my ass off? try to do funny and random stuff? yeh =.= but still im not happy. omg. what happen to me? am i dead? or the feeling already dead? and yeh people, im addicted to "Two is better than one". Today, i hear dat song more den 50 times. i heart it over over and over again. it's a nice song btw (: agak calm when listen to it. LOL. and d lyrics is nicee too! me and ariff had fight the whole day. sigh. small matter je. tp bila da besa dan besa. bertambah besa dan meriah la -.- my sis told me, just ignore him. aha. i wish i could but its not that easy cause we have been together almost 5 years. its like.. we share everything. we had fun together. but sad. why we turn into this? sigh. i wish i can runaway from this mess. save me before i get over you :( Labels: emo-ing 10:19 PM \| back to top chapter 117 : Looking for you. Dec 17, 2009 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) To the ones I loved, but didn't show it enough. To the ones who cares, & who were there from start. To the love that left, and took a piece of my heart. To the few who'd swear, they'd never go anywhere . . . where are you now? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . It takes a minute to like someone, an hour to love someone, but a lifetime to forget someone Labels: emo-ing 7:31 PM \| back to top chapter #82 : When you love somebody, Jun 6, 2009 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) im not in the mood actually. i feel like nak demam. sigh. and i feel so berdebar-debar right now. tak sedap hati feeling come to me like so many times. gosh. in my mind, something gonna happen? leya called me. and she broke up with her boyfriend. when i heard her voice, she sounds so happy? cause she really dont care bout her boyfriend btw. haha. her boyfriend is such a JERK! when she tell me the story, sorry to say. but this is the fact, okay? BOYS ARE SUCH AN ASSHOLE. her case same like mine. but her situation lil bit diff with mine which her boyfriend already got a girlfriend before he met my friend (i guess?) but the plot still same (: soo.. the guy wanna break up. maybe cause dah KANTOI? then the girl call my friend, so they got talk, talk and talk. so, my friend agree to break up. my case, sayang kantoi with me. but i never ask him to break up. blablablablablablablabla.... between my case and her case, mine is more complicated. hahaha. but she can handle this prob. me? no way. i cry everyday, every night. honestly, im a sensitive person. and i cry alot. so what? i just hate people who tell lies.. i know, i also not really good. what i mean is in ur relationship. when you love somebody, be honest to your partner. never lie to them. what is the point if you lie to them? you just create a new prob. and later you gonna stress cause cannot tahan with it. i tell this cause i already learn my lesson. Labels: emo-ing 10:08 PM \| back to top chapter #20 : a walk to remember Nov 7, 2008 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) Labels: emo-ing, sad 8:57 PM \| back to top chapter #17: My mind tells me to give up Nov 5, 2008 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) Time passes as I watch you walk away, The tears start to express what i cannot say, You have turned your back to me forever, I cannot bear to live again, never. Emptiness and darkness envelope me from everywhere, Loneliness and regret consume me, I'm unable to share, I'm alive and I'm still breathing, And yet, my heart seems to have stopped beating. I start to wish if we had never met, The affection and care u showed me all gone, What choice do i have, but to sit back and mourn? I'm sick and tired of being alone, My dreams are all battered and torn, My trust, my faith seems so meaningless now, I'm unable to take this pain anymore. Yet my heart tells me to forgive, To let go of the past, to let the love live, But a broken heart cannot think any good, It's probably reacting just the way it should. How you can change all those lies to nothing, just fun. It hurts to know how I've been played with and toyed. I carry my broken heart with me, It's mending, I'll never get to see, Looking back at you, I will try to refrain, I'm not falling for it ever again. Labels: broken heart, disappointed, emo-ing 9:07 PM \| back to top chapter #16 : I don't know anything at all Nov 4, 2008 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) IM PERIOD -.- i really cannot control myself. so i can "boom!" just like that. and easily to get hurt. so, please. watch ur words. seriously, im in emo condition. tahap critical. this post shud be 04 Nov. too bad i cannot online yesterday. internet sucks. no connection. so yeah. since i cannot online... i gt nth to do... i found this file in my documents. hmm.. its my chat logs. i also dunno i gt save all the history? i decide to read it. even i know it gonna hurts my feeling. ......... my tears rolled down. gosh. i still cannot forget bout the past. everyday i try, its gettin hard. like, its stuck in my head! why shud i think bout him? if he already forget bout me. sigh. I'm trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go. Labels: broken heart, disappointed, emo-ing, sad 8:06 PM \| back to top chapter #14 : it's over. Nov 3, 2008 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay I miss you I've never felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you today, when i wake up suddenly, i remember dis word, "ilyvm" gosh. this is hard for me. really hard. i try to be strong and try to face it. but i cant. im so weak. i cannot forget all the memories. it just, hard. yesterday, i told leya bout this. thanks babe for being there for me. she understand me. she know how i feel. thank you for your advice, your support. i really appreciate it. and thanks to wida too. for being a good listener. i love you guys to death <333 "It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye." the quote. it so true. when i think bout it again, only god knows how i feel. it hurts me alot. im stress. maybe i should try to face it slowly. like what leya told me to do, "try it slowly. you x boleh erase everything, poof! just like that" i still cant believe. everything juz nice. perfect. and suddenly, ..... i admit that im happy when im with you all the sweet time. i wont forget. 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