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chapter 206 : Tears can express feelings easier than words
Feb 26, 2010 | comment | 11 comment(s)
Jealous. Hated. Mistreated. Untrusted. Unwanted. Lonely. Sad. Hurt. Not loved. Never good enough. Bitter angry. Sad. Confused. Fake. Attacked. Insignificant. Broken. Hurt. Lost. Fallen. Small pain. Hopeless. Longing. Bored. Tired. Dead. Searching confusion. Mislead. Despair. Dead. Away. Gone. Isolated. Trapped. Widow. Vacant. Grief. Depression. Sulky. Heartbroken. Down. Unwanted. Reject. Hurt. Blur. Forgotten. Left behind. No good. Bad. Heartless
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chapter 205 : I'm so selfish and it's starting to show
Feb 23, 2010 | comment | 3 comment(s)
I sort of just feel like dying today.
I heard the alarm and I switch it off. Urgh. 12 dah? Yawns. Im so sleepy and poof. Back to sleep again.
Suddenly, I open up my eyes and I go WTF? Sakitnya perutt.. Sigh. I try to sleep back but I cant. It very painfull. I cant even get up! Urghh. Damnit. I need to ..... I just dont have the energy to get up. Sigh.
Walao. Why sakit perut sangat ni?? Okay now I get it. Im having my period pain. Try to tahan and try to get up. Almost half an hour in the toilet and then I sleep back. Tired -__-
What the .... Almost 5?! Okay, I think I should go bathe right now. Dad keep nagging his lappy cant turn on. Just throw it away, dad. Soon boleh la on tu -__- Went to bathe and I ignore his nag. Whatever. Im not gonna help you this time -__-
I had my breakfast at 5.30pm. HAHAHA! Cornflakes and fresh milk so yummy. So, I had my hi-tea around 7pm and dinner at 10 sumthing. LOL! But I still prefer KokoCrunch and honey star. Im gonna buy it when I finish the stupid cornflakes.
Well, nothing much today. I went to an event but sadly I didnt get into finals. Layak kat semi finals je. Lol. Uhm, just now got 1 chinese guy. I really have no idea what is wrong with him. Like come on la. You're noob. So act noob la kan? LOLOL! Dah kalah, anyhow scold people kan? Chill la bro. It just a game -__-
Wah. Riak, bongkak, angkuh semua ada kan? LOL. Who cares. Sigh. Ive no mood ler. Haiz.
Currently, im listening to What a wonderful world by Louis Armstrong. LOL! The song kinda peacefull. When I hear it, rasa aman dowh? Hahaha. Funneh.
I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.
Kalaulah hidup ini indah =/
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chapter 204 : Tomoshi Lukashikarikinto
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I never met Dian in real life. I think shes the one who drop by at my blog and said Hi? LOL. I just love to read her blog. Seriously. First, because her layout. Her layout so clean and suci just like me. LOL. And her entry. Really interesting. Hehehe.
So, I found this from her blog. My japanese name. Well, I wonder what is my japanese name. Here is the alphabets.
a - ka -- f - lu -- k - me -- p - no -- u - do -- z - zi
b - tu -- g - ji -- l - ta -- q - ke -- v - ru
c - me -- h - ri -- m - rin -- r - shi -- w - mei
d - te -- i - ki n - to -- s - ari -- x - na
e - ku -- j - zu -- o - mo --t - chi -- y - fu
N - to
O - mo
R - shi
F - lu
A - ka
R - shi
A - ka
H - ri
I - kin
N - to
Tomoshi LukashikarikintoWhat a weird name. LOL. But I like Tomoshi. Sounds good huh? Hehe. So, I think you guys should try it. Its kinda fun. Heee xD
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chapter 203 : All those lovers are liars
Feb 22, 2010 | comment | 34 comment(s)
Yes they are (:
Im not looking for a lover. All those lovers are liars
I had msn with Paan and he just admit that all boys are liars. Wanna see the proof? Here I show you.
Paan ;; Me
dun mention his name la
boys sume sama
apa yg dia tipu btw?
ko pn admit boys ske menipu!
da aku boys.
Because I have alot of broken heart experiences, at one point I told my friend "Hey, kau jangan ingat boyfriend kau tu baik sangat lah. Lelaki ni sume kaki penipu. Jangan sampai dia tipu kau. Baru padan muka kau."
Yes, I know im not a good friend but I just wanna let them know that never crazy in love with your partner. Its not good. You give them your trust but one day im sure and I bet you they will break your trust into a million pieces. Trust me. I face this problem like a million times.
Nothing gonna change my mind. For me, boys are all the same. There are no different. Tiada lelaki yang baik and tiada lelaki yang jahat. Semua sama. That's it. You wanna change it? Come. Meet me face to face and show me the real man! Make me change my mind then! I dont even trust my own boyfriend. Why? He break the rules -__-
I’m not going to spend my life chasing people. You wanna leave? Fine then, go ahead. Cause im done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in me. Nothing lasts and people change. I’ve learned love is hard and life is strange.
Still remember im finding a love. real love. ridiculous. inconvenient. consuming. cant-leave-without-each-other love?
Im not gonna find it anymore! I had enough with what Im going through right now! Im sick and tired with dramas! I hate drama and you know that :'[
Give me my heart back, forget all of the pain. I'm so sick and tired of playing your game.
I will never show you my pain. I will never let you see me cry. Cause I know you never care at all :)
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chapter 202 : You're not who you used to be
Unlike other people, I find it hard for me to eat when I'm upset or unhappy. Instead, I sleep away the sadness or the anger, and let time cool me off. Like just now, im having my lunch but then when I found out something, that thing really make me lost my appetite.
I started to cry. The tears rolled down. I dunno why im crying? Issit because im so angry or? Now I know. Im not angry but I just feel dissapointed. Yes, im so dissapointed on you. And now what I have to do is I need to stop giving someone my whole self, if I keep getting nothing in return.
I think I should love myself first before I want to love someone else. Im having a bad broken heart right now. And im sure no one can fix it. No one. Maybe I dont deserved to be happy. Cause every time I get the happiness it wont stay long. Sooner or later it will fade away. And this is it. It happen to me right now.
Stop asking me to cheer up. Stop saying everything is gonna be alright. Stop telling me everything! I dont wanna hear anything. Stop it, please. Im begging you. Please. Stop it! I cant take it anymore. Oh god. Why im so blind? You show me the hint but im so blind till I cant see it. Why im so stupid? Why I never learn the lesson? God damnit! Screw this! Fish this! Arghhhh!
I've been dying inside
Little by little
Nowhere to go
But goin' out of my mind
In endless circles
While im sad-ing, Tyra sent me this song. Thanks, Tyra. The song keep playing like a thousand times. I hear it over and over again. Gahhh. I really have no clue. Im totally lost.
Tyra ;; Me
good la. time aku period
sume ni happen kan?
BROKEN HEART AGAIN!
erk, sabar weyh
dia tu asyik sorok2 je :/
ko tau x
aku perasaan marah pn dah xda
nak nangis pn dah xda
tah sume dah mati
haih. baru je baik ..
means dia dah together dgn ..... tuu ?!
dia speechless ke
at least tell la kan ..
aku nak kene siap gi tuition
ltr mlm aku onn
why he doin dis
i dunno what to say ....
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chapter 201 : Lifestyle.
Feb 21, 2010 | comment | 4 comment(s)
While waiting for the food.
Sister : Aku dah agak dah. 3 girls kat bawah tu mesti smoking. Tengok cara dia dress pun dah boleh agak.
Farah : (Sambil pandang ke bawah and give this face O.O) Oh, biasa lah tu. Macam la ko x tau.
Sister : Yela, pakai sexy-sexy camtu. Confirm smoking. Tu.
Farah : (Lihat balik dekat 3 girls) Oh, aku pakai camtu pun ko nak kata aku smoking jugak la? Ur head -_-
Sister : Errr. (Terdiam sudah)
Farah : Tapi an, dlu time aku kat sch. Dorg sume ingat aku smoke. Padahal aku x -_- Maybe they see my attitude. They way I act so they tot I take drugs and all the stupid stuff. Bodoh la. Im still waras. Im not like them -____-"
Sister : Yelah, kalo girl yang gi clubbing tu sure dia drink and amek drugs tu sume.
A few minutes later...
On the way back home.
Sister : Boyfriend aku punya mak kan, dia xske if girl tu color-color rambut. Macam x baik lah.
Farah : (Dalam hati, WTF?) Oi, habis aku ni color rambut x baik la? (Bidas balik) Ko ingat girl yang pakai tudung tu semua baik? Yang rambut hitam berkilat semua baik? Dorg lagi jahanam adalah.
Sister : Eii. Ko dengar lah apa aku nak cakap dlu
Farah : Tah-tah dorang tu lagi teruk drpd kitorg yang color rambut ni.
Sister : Yelah, x semua macam tu. Tapi aku rasa secure la if mak dia cakap camtu. Aku rasa terjamin lah sikit.
Farah : Macam kitorg color rambut ni budak jahat pulak -_-
Sister : Even anak dia nak color rambut pun, mak dia x bagi. Baguslah camtu kan?
Farah : Color jelah. Pe salahnya? -__-
Trying to chill...
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chapter 200 : Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
The guy ;; The girl
u alt f4 nv say gdBye?
xda mood i nak say pape
what ive done?
xda pape la
is there anythin wrong?
kalau xda menda x kena
xkan me blah mcm tu je
i nak g mandi
den? dats y i tny u
my char afk kat inter 2
a few minutes later...
yeah. u on9 kejap. alt f4 just like dat?
dun ask me y
bengang cause of me?
i xkan poof if xda sebab
i knw. dats y i come here and tok to u.
what ive done?
dun ask me
i tanak gado
so better i go
im just askin.
i tanak jawab
Seriously, I dont understand boys! They're soo complicated. Weird and blablabla. I dont know. I just dont understand them and even my boyfriend too? Lols. I like those kinds of people who actually make an effort to keep a conversation alive :'[
In the end, I give up to force him and we just had a lil conversation like a normal one. The situation abit awkward for me but I think im doing good? Lols.
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chapter 199 : I don't know what to do anymore
Feb 19, 2010 | comment | 17 comment(s)
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IM SO FCUKING DOWN. Sigh. I spent most of my time with Tyra. And she draw me a picture. In the picture, im the one who crying and shes at the back trying to pujuk me. How sweet and cute. I wish hes the one who draw this. How sad? Haiz.
Last night, I cried myself to sleep. I dunno. It just happened? Suddenly the tears rolled down by itself. I wipe it for a few times it still come out. Then I just let it go. Sigh. Why people so mean? =(
"I typed up "I love you" but then you signed off... is this fate telling me it's not meant to be?"and this shit happened to me like a few times -_-
I wonder where is my prince? =/
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chapter 198 : Mixed emotions are the worst emotions
Feb 18, 2010 | comment | 2 comment(s)
Hahaha. This picture made me LOLOL-ed.
Some people might be hard to reach me. Im sorry. And sorry again to Amilia. Should be im going to her house today but ........ Its hard to say. All I can say is im sorry, babe. Sigh.
Im not in a good mood. Mood swings nowadays. I dunno why. Sometimes im okay and sometimes im soooo not okay. Currently my mood is upside down. All I want is someone who can make me laugh for non-stop. Lols.
Big thanks to Tyra. She try to pujuk me and I think the pujukan menjadi? Abit la. Lols. I had msn with her and she give me a hug icon. Aww. That is so sweet. Hugs back* Im so lonely. Seriously I need someone to talk to. To laugh with. Hais. Life is getting so gayyy.
I still remembered I had msn with this one guy. So he asked me what up blablabla and he trying his best to cheer me up. Thats nice and lastly when we both gtg he give a hug icon. Aww. He is the first guy who give me that icon. Seriously wey. Lols. But I didnt reply him. I just ignore him. Maybe im sick of boy's attitude? I know he try to calm me but no thanks. Actually im waiting for someone else to do that =/
Last night, I received a miss called from this guy. Gosh. Now ure looking back for me or what?
Please leave me alone. I dont need you anymore =(
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chapter 197 : Oh, bloggers.
Feb 16, 2010 | comment | 7 comment(s)
I don't want another Cinderella story. I don't even want a Twilight story. All I want is YOU & ME. ME & YOU. Together. Our own story. Our own....
Happy ending (:
"Profail popular hari ini" AGAIN! Thanks, GengBlogger. Haha. At first, I didnt notice it. Seriously but then when Aidi said ,
Seriously, I never expect anything in my life. First time I joined GengBlogger I was like "Wow! He read 539 blogs in one day? Crazy sia!". Then I look at the Profail Popular and I think "They sure famous sia and must be very active". I was noob! Like really noob! I still remembered, Ariff who the one introduce me into GB.
Sadly, he didnt get any title cause he not really active. Lols. And yes, on the second day my cbox was very busy. I received alot of comment from them. That was nice and quite fun cause with that way we can get new friends. Heee. Yesterday, I went to Nuffnang and I look back my previous analytics. In one day, I got 559 viewers from different country and I think that is so cool and the next day it turn to 610 viewers! Im so proud with myself kot? Haha.
Sometimes I received comment from other people and they said I do have a nice blog, nice entry, and they just love to read my blog. Aww. To those who said that, you really make my day! Haha. Thanks people! As far as I know, my life is sooo not interesting but they still read my crap and im touched. Hahas. I just having a normal life like the others and as you all know, my post fulls with frustrated and all the stupid emo posts. Lols.
My body isnt perfect. I dont walk with confidence. I get into fights with my parent and friends. Some nights I'd rather be by myself than out partying. I cry over the smallest thing sometimes. There are days I through forced smiles and fake laughs. Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are okay when they're not. Im not ugly but im not beautiful. I dont look as good in real life as I do in pictures. There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep. I constantly think im not good enough. Im imperfect but im perfectly me.
Just like You (:
Thanks to Ariff and thanks to my followers, to my silent readers and fans? Eh, I got fans meh? Haha. Who knows? Silent fans ke? Haha. I really appriciate it. Somehows, you guys cheer me up. Thanks alot.
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chapter 196 : Loving you may be wrong
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I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of heartaches. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of feeling inadequate and helpless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of how insecured I am. I’m tired of how my emotion flies around like a rollar coaster ride. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of dramas. I’m tired of the world. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming a life I know I will never have. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of people walking out of my life. I’m tired of myself. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of lies. I’m tired of empty promises. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of wishing things could start all over again. I’m tired of being not okay. I’m tired wondering when I’m going to be happy.
I’m tired of being tired.
This is really straining me, I could hardly breathe.
I apologize if I'm giving up too easily. I just don't have the strength to fight anymore.
I need a love. real love. ridiculous. inconvenient. consuming.
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chapter 195 : This beautiful world is filled with fucked up people
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Tell her how you admire her. Always tell her you love her at all times, but never when your unsure yourself. When she’s upset hold her tight. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with. Play with her hair, pick her up, tickle her and wrestle with her. Just talk to her, tell her jokes. Bring her flowers just because. Hold her hand and run, just to hold her hand. Throw pebbles at her window at night. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
Sing to her no matter how awful you sound. Get her mad at you and then kiss her. Push her on swings. Tell her she looks beautiful. When she’s sad stay on the phone with her, even if she’s not saying anything. Look into her eyes and smile. Kiss her on the forehead. Slow dance with her even if there is no music. Kiss her in the rain. But most of all, love her with everything you have.
Gahhh. Congratulations. You just ruined my mood. Here, a gold medal for you. Peace (middle finger)
Someone hug me please? =/
Im so down right now. I need someone to talk to who can hear my crap. Someone who can stay up for me. Someone who can cheer me up? Are you the one that im looking for? Sigh. My heart is fragile and im sensitive sometimes.
A message for you and YOU!
You. You boleh tak jangan bagi I serabut? Cukuplah. I had enough. Please?
And for you, we known each other quite long kan? Apa kata we exchange place, I jadi you, and you jadi me, so if I ask you the same question, how do you feel? Happy? Angry? Jealousy? Mad? Or you wanna kill me?
Im controlling myself now. Inhale. Exhale :'((
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chapter 194 : The nonsense
Feb 15, 2010 | comment | 6 comment(s)
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Last night, I had msn with Lil and Tyra muncul after 3am? Wtf? Hahaha. Baru bangun tidur katanya. Nak kata sembahyang subuh, lmbt lg kot? Hahaha. I think Ariff muncul afta 5? LOL! Semua night owl. Hahas.
Since I got nothing to do, I google my address. HAHAHA. Click it people. And I found my area, so at the picture, you guys can see I color-ed my house with green apple color. Yeah. That is my house. Umah Tyra, sblh je. LOL. And to Shuko, aku still x try screen grab apa tah yg kita cite aritu an? Haha. Maybe later.
Well, nothing much today. I woke up kinda early at 12pm. LOL! It is early for me. Lols. Oh yeh, one more thing, remember my last post? I sleep early around 2.30am? The nex morning I woke up around 10AM! YES! AM! 10AM IN THE MORNING! HAH! Hahaha. Bangga okay? Lol. So, today I help my sis to clean up her room. After that, lipat kain. Wahhh. Ayu nye. Hahaha. Lol -_- And then I jahit her teddy bear cause that teddy nye hand almost putus dah and cacat already. LOL. Yes, Farah reti jahit and my sis said "Comelnya Ayin jahit!". Heh. Of course la. Owner dia pn comel? Hahaha.
Im not really okay. The virus is attack-ing me. Flu virus. The red one. So, I take medicine and the medicine kick the virus away. So, Farah is okay and abit sleepy cause of the medicine effect. Tyra text-ed me and as usual la dia nye question "x online ke?" LOL. So, I had audi with her today and congratulations to her. She won at the third place in Arena. Nice one. Thanks to me yang non-stop shake shake pompom? Hahaha.
Around 3, I pm-ed Tyra and she give me this and I go WTF? HAHA! After that, she give me this. Faint! Ko horny ke apa? Hahaha.
Around 9, I teach my sister how to make cupcakes. Heee. She want me to teach her. Nice. Jadi sifu hari ni. Haha. Today, abit diff cause I make chocolate flavour and yumm yumm. Sedap. Hehe. Aww. I didnt take any photos. I will upload them in the next chapter. The decoration abit simple cause we make only for fun? Hahas. And dad told me to sell cupcakes? Alahai. Bukan I dun wan to. Just that, im nt pro enough kot? Amateur lagi. Hahas.
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chapter 193 : Whatever day
Feb 14, 2010 | comment | 4 comment(s)
I think I should lose some weight. Hmm. A few weeks ago, I text-ed dad and ask him to buy me a cadbury chocolate, the plain one. Yes! Plain! I dun like it mix wit hazel nuts, fruits or whatever. The plain one is nicer. Lols. After a few weeks beli, barulah I nak makan chocolate tu? LOL. Its been years I didnt buy cadbury. Seriously. And now im kinda stress, so I started to eat all the sweet sweet thingy like cadbury chocolates, cakes and ice-creams. Wow, its not good tho. Really. I think I should stop take them from now on?
Happy Valentine's day!Uhm. I know, its kinda late. I should put "belated" but who cares? Haha. This post was in my draft but I really dun have much time to post it. Kinda busy. Yeh rite busy -_- as I said, I have no mood, people! LOL! So, its valentine's day? Like I said before, I had my V day alone. Lols. Oh, this afternoon, I went to one of my relative's wedding but I didnt see Tyra? I only saw his brother? But she told me, she saw me? She only saw my car! WTF? Hahaha. And she complain the daging is too oily blablablabla. Byk cekadak la. Ko kahwin nnt, aku complain. Hahaha.
Happy Chinese New Year!
So, I went back home around 2.30pm kot? Cant remember. And I had audi with Lil and Tyra till 5pm. Oh, before that. I called Ariff and he just act like normal? Like nothing happen? -_- If I tau jadi camni, I should use your money beli McD aritu? -_- I didnt ask anything. I never ask, "I think we should go out kan today?" Never! Cause I wanna know whether he still remembered what he said or not and yes. He mmg x ingat and that's make me sakit hati sal McD. Humph! -_-
After 5, I pei my sis to Jusco Kepong. Danish and Leesya joined us too. Went to Jusco for what eh? I also cant remember! Hahaha! Ohh yeah. Sis looking for sun shade. Yes yes. After she bought it, we went to Jusco and looking for a drink bottle for her boyfie. Alahai. Botol air pun ko nak belikan. Gedik. Haha. Okay, maybe that is sweet but ..... Humph. First first couple mmg cmni kan? Haha. After that, off to Jalan Kuching and we had dinner kat sana.
I watched Raja Lawak and x lawak langsung. LOL! I had audi kinda early maybe around 10 something kot? Btw, this is the screenshort for petang tadi.
And again, im planning to update after I finished audi but I didnt update. All the post save in draft. Hahaha.
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chapter 192 : Oh, sister!
Feb 13, 2010 | comment | 7 comment(s)
Hahaha. The truth is in real life I do wear glasses =p but not always cause I hate to wear it. Lols. So, im back again, people? Hahaha. Macam biscuit plak. Kejap ada kejap xda. Lol. Im really sorry. Lately I've no mood to blogging. Aww. Sobs. I dunno why. Maybe I run out of idea? =(
Hello, how are you? (:
Oh, tomorrow is valentine's day =/
Saturday. I went to Midvalley with my sister. Uhm, its been long time I didnt went to Midvalley. So far nothing is change only they do have Chinese New Year's decoration at the Center Court? But I didnt take any photos cause the decoration not really nice. Hahaha. Oops. Lol. We off to Midvalley around 3pm. I woke up at 1pm and I need 2 hours to get ready. Haha. Biasalah girls. Kan kan? Lols.
I watched "Warung Kita" at Prima channel yesterday and they had nasi ayam for their lunch. Aww. Yummy yummy. Dah lama jugak x makan nasi ayam =( So, I called my sister and I told her I wanna eat nasi ayam. The place is located at Keramat which abit far from my place. Plus, I dont even know where it is? Lol. Since we dunno where issit, we had our nasi ayam at the Chicken Rice Shop. Hahaha. Sama jugak kan? Nasi ayam jugak. LOL. Well, I heard from the others, The Chicken Rice Shop is non-Halal. Issit? o.o I never know that? I dunno la. People yang cakap but I nampak je tanda Halal tu? Lol.
So, I reach home around 8 something and terus POOF! Super duper tired. Haha. I didnt get enough sleep nowadays. The kids are here. So yeh. They always "Maksu, maksu. Bangun la. Bangun la Maksu". Wtf? -_- I woke up around 11pm and I went to desktop. Planning nak update blog but maybe i still in sleepy mode, so yeah. I really have no idea what to write =x
Went to audi for 1 game then I off. Went to audi AGAIN and I bought fam channel for 6 hours and guess what? I didnt do any tag. Hahaha. Planning to do solo tag but cannot find tagger. So yeah. I sleep kinda early? Around 2.30am =p
Its a new record for me. I online and I had 1 game. Choreo mode plak tu. Haha. And I sleep early. Nice nice. Lols.
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chapter 191 : Stalking can be a really tiring thing
Feb 12, 2010 | comment | 9 comment(s)
To those who non stop spamming at my cbox, keep reading my blog and here I give you a paper bird with heart on it. HAHAHA.
Actually the post title is for Paan. LOL! But, to all bloggers. Please gimme some time to reply all your Hello, Blogwalking, Nuff zz and other stuff. Currently, my connection is abit slow. Damnit. Feel like I wanna throw it away but wait. Cannot be. Cannot Cannot. Haha.
I will reply all your comment as soon as possible but hey, I do have a life too. Hahas. My cbox already turn 2 or 3 pages that I have to reply. Sigh. Tak boleh tangguh lagi dah =(
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chapter 190 : Screw valentine's day!
My fcuking life =_=
Oh, its friday baby! And valentine is coming! Weee =/ Hahaha. Who wanna ask me for a date on this sunday? Raise your hand. Heee. Anyone wanna give a try? Aww. Come on! Be gentle, people. Dun be shy. Farah wont bite you. Hahaha. Gosh. Gedik -_-
Im really tired. Seriously, im exhausted! I didnt get enough sleep today even I woke up around 3pm? Sigh. Seriously. I slept at 7am in the morning. Around 9 something I received a phone call from Menara Star and guess what baby? Im gonna start working on the 1st March. Whooo Hooo. Clap clap clap. Congratulations Farah. Nanti I belanja you makan, alright? Heee. Okay, while talking im pretending to have a nice and fresh voice so that she didnt realize yang I still sleeping kan? Hahaha. After that, I poof again.
Around 11 something, I got text from Hotlink. Damn it la! I benci bila Hotlink yang bagi msg =/ I nak orang lain. Hahaha. So, I sleep again. Around 12pm. My alarm -_- Fk la. Idk who the heck yang gi on kan alarm tu? But I think it was me? =/ Planning nak wake up early? X nak jodoh lari? Hahaha. So, I sleep again. Then, Ariff drop by at my house. Gahhh! Berzaman la aku nak tido kan? Gosh. Tido arini sungguh terganggu x.x And that's it! Around 3pm, I decided to bathe.
Sis called me and ask to pei her tonight cause her friend, sooo called abang fadzli? LOL. Yeh rite. Abang? Ewww. Gay -_- Yeah, she wanna go to Fadzli house tonight at Rawang semata-mata nak hantar sabun. Faint. Okay, no problem. Its fine with me since I got nothing to do kan? Oh btw, for married people kan. If baru kahwin, hadiah apa nak bagi? Any ideas anyone? Please drop me some comment. Thanks. So, back to the story. Beside that, I had audi and I did solo tag but oni for awhile cause its so damn lag in audi. Idk its me or the server yang lag? Sigh. I stop audi around 7pm and I watched tv till I fall asleep. Hahaha.
Sis woke me up around 8pm. And I get ready to go to Rawang. Gahh. Sure tidur dalam keta ni. Ngantuk gila. Faint. Reach Rawang around 10.30pm. Then off to Fadzli house. So, tengok-tengok album kahwin dia. Quite nice but still I dun like ur wife's attitude. Right sis? Opps? Sorry. Its a fact, baby. I think you know what I mean if you're read this but I dun think you read my blog and I guess you dont even know that I have a blog? LOL!
Reach KL around 12am and yes I had audi for 2 or 3 rounds with Paan and Erfan which oni for 2 or 3 moves? Haha. LOL. Gila bosan. I try to update but I really dunno what to write. So, I think thats all for today kot? Yeah. Nothing much la. My life is gay. Xda benda yang interesting pun. Hahas.
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chapter 189 : I wish.
Feb 11, 2010 | comment | 4 comment(s)
Reasons why a lot of girls love Edward Cullen ♥
A normal guy would say: “I love you.”
Edward would say: “You are my life now.”
As you leave the house..
A normal guy would say: “Bye! See you!”
Edward would say: “Hurry back to me.”
While you’re gone far away..
A normal guy would say: “I miss you.”
Edward would say: “It’s like you’ve taken my whole self with you.”
If you died..
A normal guy would find another girl.
Edward would kill himself ‘cause life without you is not worth living.
but Edward Cullen is a fictional character, & will always be..
I wish if I have a boyfriend who have Edward Cullen's character. He really took my breathe away. Faint.
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chapter 188 : Cupcake part II
Feb 10, 2010 | comment | 3 comment(s)
"You should never listen to a woman who just had her heart broken."
- Desperate Housewives
But thank you, followers. No matter what im going through, you guy are always here. Thanks alot. I luff lufff luffffff all of you ♥
Oh hello people (:
IM BACK! Weeee.
Im sorry I didnt update this 2 days. Ive been busy. Wahh. REALLY busy man. Hahaha. Actually, the day before yesterday, I made cupcakes for me.
I got nothing to update actually. Hahas. Lately no mood for blogging. I dunno why. But thinking of nuffnang, maybe I should blogging back. If not, waste je kan? Hmmph.. Nothing much la for now (:
See ya in the next chapter (:
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chapter 187 : You still mean a lot to me.
Feb 9, 2010 | comment | 4 comment(s)
"Why you nak touching-touching pulak? Tah tah dia kata sana tgh happy-happy and you kat sini nak emo-emo?"
"You relax jela. Tak payah nak emo. Buat cam normal je"
Rasa cam nak reply ;; "YOUR HEAD!"
But I just replied ;; "Im not touching la!". Saja nak cover. Padahal memang terasa time tu.
Argh. FUCK. Kalau lah boleh tunjuk middle finger kat depan dia time tu. Sumpah terasa gila? Boleh dia advice kat aku mcm tu? X guna!
Im so broken up. I didnt left you. Really. Just, I cannot stand it. I rasa mcm ..... Sigh. I run away not because I want to get away from you, but I want you to catch me.
I need a vacation D:
Im always torn between wanting to tell my story to everyone to let them know exactly what is in my head and keeping it to myself. The problem is being outwardly unhappy and consistently so pushes people away, no matter if they say they're always there to listen there is only so much even your best friends can listen too. On the otherhand to pretend that everything is fine is to poison yourself from the inside out. It is to ignore who you are and lose yourself. So which is better? To have friends that think you are melodramatic, seeking attention, and possimistic or to drown in your own mind? I honestly dont know =/
This is exactly how I feel. Sigh. It hurts, you know? It hurts me alot :'((
My heart was cut deep and cast aside, & I’m so sick of this headache. Even if I beg on my knees, pound my chest, and cry, what was never to happen will not happen. Everytime she says she's okay, but she's going insane. She says she feels good, but she's going through a lot of pain. She says its nothing, but it's really everything. She says she's fine, but she's really not.
ㅠ________________________ㅠ brb crying my heart out.
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chapter 186 : You don't need me.
Sometimes I miss being in relationships.
because I miss the times loving someone,
because I miss the times pinching someone,
because I miss the times kissing someone,
because I miss the times resting my head on someone’s shoulder,
because I miss those moments.
actually, I cared that I have to celebrate valentine’s day alone this year.
I really care =/
It kills me to know you're online but isn't talking to me. I guess it just takes time to realize I don't mean anything to you anymore... or maybe never really did. Sigh.
Goshh. I dun even have any mood to do anything! I keep stare at the screen for NOTHING! This is gayyyyyyy. So gayy. A few hours ago. I feel so happy but why you take it away? You're jealous don't you?!
I need someone.
My formspring is lonely. Sigh. Cheer us up? formspring
Just now Paan ask me, "valentine keluar dgn siapa weh?"
I hate that question! Dont ask me who or what or where! I have to celebrate my valentine's day alone :'((
That question abit sensitive. LOL. Haiz.
I get so sick of everyone disappointing me. I guess it's my fault for thinking so highly of people. Because in the end, no one seems to live up to my expectations.
Im so not okay.
Can I ask you one thing?
I sometimes wonder if I leave you right now... would you grab me, or would you just let me walk away?
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chapter 185 : Dear, GengBlogger
Feb 8, 2010 | comment | 16 comment(s)
Click for larger image, people (:Errkk. A few minutes ago I just finished update my blog. So, as usual i will go to GB website to ping my blog. Oh for your information. Sorry. Im noob in this. So I just joined Innit. Hahaha. So, I ping my blog dekat innit juga tadi. Heee. Okay, then just now GB website cannot open. I dunno why. Maybe some technical probs? But its fine with me. I understand.
A few minutes later.. GB can open la. So, like always like I did, terus ping my blog. So, while im looking at other post kan. Tetiba TERnampak and I go like EH? O.O Bukan ke tu profile aku? LOL! Hell yeah people! As you can see in the image ;; Profail POPULAR hari ini. Hah amek! Farahlycious turut tersenarai! Hahaha. Woots woots. Clap clap clap xD
“I would like to take this opportunity to thank GengBlogger for give me award ;;"Popular Profile of The Day". HAHAHAHA"
Bukan nak riak. Just x sangka. Tu je. LOL. Thanks again. Heee. Popular ke? LOL. Thats the thing. Popular ka? Haha.
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chapter 184 : To be honest, I'm running out of reasons to smile.
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I feel like I'm always the one starting arguments. I'm sorry I'm such a complicated person :'((
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