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chapter #17: My mind tells me to give up

Nov 5, 2008 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Time passes as I watch you walk away,
The tears start to express what i cannot say,
You have turned your back to me forever,
I cannot bear to live again, never.

Emptiness and darkness
envelope me from everywhere,
Loneliness and regret consume me,
I'm unable to share,
I'm alive and I'm still breathing,
And yet, my heart seems to have
stopped beating.

I start to wish if we had never met,
The affection and care
u showed me all gone,
What choice do i have,
but to sit back and mourn?
I'm sick and tired of being alone,
My dreams are all battered and torn,
My trust, my faith seems
so meaningless now,
I'm unable to take this pain anymore.

Yet my heart tells me to forgive,
To let go of the past, to let the love live,
But a broken heart cannot think any good,
It's probably reacting just the way it should.

How you can change
all those lies to nothing, just fun.
It hurts to know how
I've been played with and toyed.

I carry my broken heart with me,
It's mending, I'll never get to see,
Looking back at you,
I will try to refrain,
I'm not falling for it ever again.

Labels: broken heart, disappointed, emo-ing

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chapter #16 : I don't know anything at all

Nov 4, 2008 | comment | 0 comment(s)

IM PERIOD -.-
i really cannot control myself. so i can "boom!" just like that.
and easily to get hurt.
so, please. watch ur words.
seriously, im in emo condition. tahap critical.

this post shud be 04 Nov.
too bad i cannot online yesterday.
internet sucks. no connection.
so yeah. since i cannot online...
i gt nth to do... i found this file in my documents.
hmm.. its my chat logs.
i also dunno i gt save all the history?

i decide to read it.
even i know it gonna hurts my feeling.
.........
my tears rolled down.
gosh. i still cannot forget bout the past.
everyday i try, its gettin hard.
like, its stuck in my head!

why shud i think bout him?
if he already forget bout me. sigh.

I'm trying really hard not to cry over you
because every tear is just one
more reminder that I don't know how to let you go.

Labels: broken heart, disappointed, emo-ing, sad

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chapter #14 : it's over.

Nov 3, 2008 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

today, when i wake up
suddenly, i remember dis word, "ilyvm"
gosh. this is hard for me. really hard.
i try to be strong and try to face it.
but i cant. im so weak. i cannot forget all the memories. it just, hard.

yesterday, i told leya bout this.
thanks babe for being there for me.
she understand me. she know how i feel.
thank you for your advice, your support. i really appreciate it.
and thanks to wida too. for being a good listener.
i love you guys to death <333

"It takes a couple seconds to say Hello,
but forever to say Goodbye."

the quote. it so true.
when i think bout it again,
only god knows how i feel.
it hurts me alot. im stress.
maybe i should try to face it slowly.
like what leya told me to do,
"try it slowly. you x boleh erase everything, poof! just like that"

i still cant believe.
everything juz nice. perfect.
and suddenly, .....

i admit that im happy when im with you
all the sweet time. i wont forget.

Labels: broken heart, disappointed, emo-ing, lonely

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chapter #17: My mind tells me to give up Nov 5, 2008 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) Time passes as I watch you walk away, The tears start to express what i cannot say, You have turned your back to me forever, I cannot bear to live again, never. Emptiness and darkness envelope me from everywhere, Loneliness and regret consume me, I'm unable to share, I'm alive and I'm still breathing, And yet, my heart seems to have stopped beating. I start to wish if we had never met, The affection and care u showed me all gone, What choice do i have, but to sit back and mourn? I'm sick and tired of being alone, My dreams are all battered and torn, My trust, my faith seems so meaningless now, I'm unable to take this pain anymore. Yet my heart tells me to forgive, To let go of the past, to let the love live, But a broken heart cannot think any good, It's probably reacting just the way it should. How you can change all those lies to nothing, just fun. It hurts to know how I've been played with and toyed. I carry my broken heart with me, It's mending, I'll never get to see, Looking back at you, I will try to refrain, I'm not falling for it ever again. Labels: broken heart, disappointed, emo-ing 9:07 PM \| back to top chapter #16 : I don't know anything at all Nov 4, 2008 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) IM PERIOD -.- i really cannot control myself. so i can "boom!" just like that. and easily to get hurt. so, please. watch ur words. seriously, im in emo condition. tahap critical. this post shud be 04 Nov. too bad i cannot online yesterday. internet sucks. no connection. so yeah. since i cannot online... i gt nth to do... i found this file in my documents. hmm.. its my chat logs. i also dunno i gt save all the history? i decide to read it. even i know it gonna hurts my feeling. ......... my tears rolled down. gosh. i still cannot forget bout the past. everyday i try, its gettin hard. like, its stuck in my head! why shud i think bout him? if he already forget bout me. sigh. I'm trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go. Labels: broken heart, disappointed, emo-ing, sad 8:06 PM \| back to top chapter #14 : it's over. Nov 3, 2008 \| comment \| 0 comment(s) I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay I miss you I've never felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you today, when i wake up suddenly, i remember dis word, "ilyvm" gosh. this is hard for me. really hard. i try to be strong and try to face it. but i cant. im so weak. i cannot forget all the memories. it just, hard. yesterday, i told leya bout this. thanks babe for being there for me. she understand me. she know how i feel. thank you for your advice, your support. i really appreciate it. and thanks to wida too. for being a good listener. i love you guys to death <333 "It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye." the quote. it so true. when i think bout it again, only god knows how i feel. it hurts me alot. im stress. maybe i should try to face it slowly. like what leya told me to do, "try it slowly. you x boleh erase everything, poof! just like that" i still cant believe. everything juz nice. perfect. and suddenly, ..... i admit that im happy when im with you all the sweet time. i wont forget. Labels: broken heart, disappointed, emo-ing, lonely 4:48 PM \| back to top