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chapter 172 : I like you lots
Jan 31, 2010 | comment | 3 comment(s)


Did I tell you, I love you today?

Maybe no. Before its too late, I just wanna say Hi, I love You! If you do, please reply me through text. Im waiting for the answer. Thank you

(Well, I think ive been waiting all the time for you to say that to me =/ Sigh.)

Arsenal is sooo gonna DOWN, baby! Woots woots! MU is owning the game! Yeah, baby! LOL. Cheer for MU -_- This is lame. Today I saw Julianna Evans with her boyfriend at the Ikea. She's pretty sia o.o Be mine? Lol. At first, I didnt know that is Julianna Evans until my sis told me "Hey, tu kan pelakon tu? Julianna Evans? Tu plak boyfriend dia, group bunkface" And im like "Oohh, yeke? Aku tatau o.o ". I sleep kinda "early". Almost 9am. LOL. Should be im going out with Paan to OU but I didnt go. Seriously lupa dowh. Im really sorry. LOL.

Went to Ikea with my sister. We did a survey for a new bed. After that, she bought a cactus -_- Then, we went to pasar malam at TTDI. I bought nasi ayam. Yummy yummy. Its been long time I didnt eat nasi ayam. Sooo.. I watched Raja Lawak. Hah. Lawak la jugak. They make me LOL-ed for a few secs -_- Now, here I am. Online and sad-ing =/

Im bored. Cheer me up people at the formspring ?

Oh yeah. This morning, I had talk with Song Wei thru msn. He called me but I didnt talked. LOL. I just type while he keep talking blablablabla. And and he sang for me! LOL! While he waiting for me to reply, he singing and I said, "Sing for me? Im bored". He did. He sang a song from Secondhand Serenade - Fall for you. He really got a nice voice o.o

Btw, thanks cause cheer me up even a bit? I really appriciate it.
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chapter 171 : No one knows how its like to be me
Jan 30, 2010 | comment | 6 comment(s)


"Happiness, Sadness, Tears, Sky, Stars, and My heaven
".

A few minutes ago, I cant find my phone. Bagus lah. Memang aku tanak jumpa pun ngan handphone aku tu. Buat sakit hati je. Tadi dah campak dia. So dah tatau ke mana dia terpelanting. Bagus. Biarkan! Aku sakit hati sekarang ni. Yes! Sakit hati! Paling koman pun, dia x ilang ke mana pun. Dalam bilik aku jugak.

Hari sabtu sangat membosankan! Tidur pukul 6.30 pagi tadi rasanya? X berapa ingt. Went to audi with lil then we tag hearts till 5am. Eh eh. He stop at 5am but I still continue till 6am kot? LOL. So, I woke up at 12pm. Heh. Agak awal bukan? Well, ada jodoh la tu. Hahaha. But still, dah kul 12pm aku still baring-baring dekat katil sambil pandang ceiling. Ada stars, ada moon, ada planet. Korang nye ada ke? X da kan? X best. Humph. Baring-baring sampai kul 3.30pm. LOL.

Ye, mmg aku dah x da benda nak buat dah. Thats y aku malas-malas je nak bangun. Bangun-bangun, kakak aku dah ilang tah ke mana. Parent pun sama. Last-last tinggal aku sorg-sorg kat umah. Check atas meja, xda makanan. So, kena masak sendiri la jawabnya kan? Hahaha. Well, I did. I masak nasi goreng and cucur ikan bilis. Yummy yummy. After that, around 5pm tengok raja lawak (ulangan). Heh, dah ketara sangat la aku xda benda nak buat kan? Tengok ulangan pun jadilah.

I went to audi so I did solo tag till 10pm. Wahhhh. Bosannya la arini. Sambil tag tu, mak aku boleh plak panggil-panggil kat living rm tu. Dia nak tnjuk kat aku sesi Fahrin nangis. Yupp, aku ngaku aku minat kat mamat tubuh sasa tu yang lagi gagah perkasa. Gagah-gagah dia pun, finally dia menitiskan air mata secara live in front of reporters. Biarpun cerita ni a fews days ago dah, lantak aku nak cite jugak hari ni. LOL. Kesiannya la kat dia. Jahat sungguh Linda Onn ni. Ye, aku berpihak kat Fahrin cause dia ex boyfriend aku. So, aku tau behaviour dia camne. And ko benci aku x ske Linda Onn? Ada aku heran? Ni blog aku, so ske hati aku la. If ko benci ngn post aku, ko press alt f4, alright? Memang dari dulu aku benci Linda Onn. Ye, aku BENCI! Hahaha.

Lepas tengok gossip Fahrin and Linda Onn tu, aku kembali ke audi. Kawan aku si Rumi plak buat love party. Gratz for saffron. Jys to cuphea. Mesti korang pelik kan? Pe benda la audi ni? Hahaha. If some readers yang tau audi tu mende, hello-hello la kat aku. Ko pun main audi jugak ke? IGN ko apa? Jom la vs. Wahhh. Hahaha.
Ni la audi. Full name dia AuditionSEA. View la for bigger image yeah. Aku x minat dota, Cs ke apa jadah la yg adventure-adventure tu sume. Cause aku takut main benda tu. Hahaha. Cam real plak. Kang aku mati, darah plak terpancut-pancut sana sini. Scary sia. Tamo uh. Lols. Siang malam jugak la aku main benda ni. Siang x jugak cause aku tidur. So, aku active waktu mlm. Hee

Sharp 11.30pm, aku pun offline. Takde mood plak nak main. Press key pun dah beterabo je sume. So, I decided to update blog since dah xda benda nak buat. Mata aku ni asyik jeling je handphone kat sebelah. Kot-kot ada msg masuk ke. Aku tgh tunggu sebenarnya ni. Lol. Pastu, phone pun ringing. Excited gila nak angkat, last-last tgk member aku call. Malas la nak layan mamat ni. Kang layan lebih-lebih, sangkut kat aku plak. Tu yang aku malas. zzz. Lately ni dia asyik call aku je. Tension betul. Pastu, phone ringing lagi tapi bunyi message ringtone. Wahh, excited dah nak tengok. Then last-last kakak aku bg msg.

Eh, ko tau x? Aku kat bilik aku, dia kat bilik dia, blh nak msg aku suruh sidai kain? Wtf? Banyak betul credit ko kan? Hulur kat aku sikit credit ko tu? Saba jela aku. Okay, tu dua. Xpela lagi la. Then third plak, bunyi msg lagi. Hah, last-last Hotlink bg msg. Wahhh. Aku x tahan, last-last aku campak handphone aku yang kini aku tatau dia katne. Bagus la. Aku sakit hati. Aku bengang! Yes! Aku rs cam dah xnak pakai dah hp aku tu. Pk-pk nak off je phone tu tapi mana tau ada emergency call ke? Interview ke? Aku mana tau kan? Sigh. Lonely tul hp aku tu. Owner dia pun lonely jugak.

Aku rs post aku kali ni agak panjang. Penat baca x? Sorry. Tetiba idea makin lama makin mencurah pulak. Hahaha. So, tu jela yang aku buat utk hari sabtu yang bosan ni. Boring kan jadi aku? Aku pn xske life aku. Benci gila. Hahaha. Arini, tetiba plak xda org anta question kat formspring. Alahaiii, bosannya la =(
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chapter 170 : If you
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Yes, Im okay. Dont worry. Im okay. Yeah, im okay. Yada yada, im okay. Urghh. Im okay la. Sigh. People, im okay. Gahhh. Fine! Im not okay! IM SOOO NOT OKAY! Sigh =(

IF YOU.....
If you dress nicely, he says you're a snob
If you dress sexy, he says you're a slut
If you argue with him, he says you're stubborn,
If you're quiet, he says you're stupid
If you call him, he says you're needy and clingy.
If he calls you, he says you should be grateful
If you don't love him, he'll try to win you
If you love him, he'll leave you.
If you don't f*** him, he'll say you don't love him,
If you do, he'll say you're easy.
If you tell him your problems, he'll say you're irritating,
If you don't, he'll say you don't trust him.
If you lecture him, he'll say you're bitchy,
If he lectures you, it's because he “cares”.
If you break a promise, you can't be trusted,
If he breaks it, he had to
If you cheat, u expect it to be over
If he cheats, he expects to be given another chance
Either way.... you never win.

So, tell me! What do you want me to do? Huh?! I just dont get it. Boys are so confusing. Sometimes I hate them but I dun wanna be a lesbian? LOL. Im still straight -_- Okay, enough. People, cheer me up? Leave me some smiley at formspring.
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chapter 169 : Hello, square one. Nice to see you again.
Jan 29, 2010 | comment | 12 comment(s)

Dear, diary.

"I love him more than the sunlight, the moonlight, the lamplight, the incandescent light, the florescent light, the LED light, the starlight, the …the spotlight?, the christmas-tree lights, the light that comes off a TV in a dark room… Fuck, this is getting silly, but just know that I love him more than anything. Hahaha!"

Firstly, I've answered alot of question in formspring. That shit kinda makes me happy. So, you wanna talk? Need an advice? Ask question? Do drop it here, formspring.

Gahhh. Im so bored. I set the alarm at 12 noon. But heh. I woke up at 4pm. LOL! So, hows the interview? I didnt go, people. They should send me an email aite? But I didnt get it even till now. So yeah. Bye bye Jalan Raja Chulan? Hahaha. I wanna try my luck on this Tuesday. Heee xD

Its friday, baby! Lets have some fun! Wooo. Sigh. Im trying to cheer up myself. LOL. Im so lame -_- Around 5.30pm, I got phone call from the Sheraton Hotel. So, I got two interview on this Tuesday. First at The Star and second at the Sheraton Hotel. Wish me luck, guys. Amin.

This morning, im abit emo. I dunno why. Im so down like really down. Sigh. I listen-ed to Hitz.fm this morning and guess what? The song they keep playing was love sad song. Damn it! Im so sick of love song. Yeh rite -_- But only for now la. Hahaha. Lucky he was there for me

Nothing much today. I had fight with the same guy again. Sigh. Screw love. I used to heart love but not anymore :(
Aww. Emo dah. Hahaha. OMG. Im agree with them! Screw Prom Night movie! The truth is, I just watched it at HBO just now. Im abit out dated. I know -_- Sumpah tak best. Sigh. Tapi tengok jugak la. LOL.

My parent went to Tesco so yeah they leave me alone at home. Sigh. Since I got nothing to do I cook-ed for myself. No pictures. Sorry. LOL. After they reach home, they kemaskan barang and all then suddenly mum call me from the kitchen. And guess what? Mum bought me Kacip Fatimah. Oh WTF? Hahaha. Pe motif semuanya ini? Hahahaha. When she give me that thing, I go like HUH? O.O. Faint. Oh btw, what is the function of Kacip Fatimah? Do anyone knows? LOL.
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chapter 168 : There's nothing else I can say
Jan 28, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

A few minutes ago, mr anonymous make me LOL-ed again. Hahaha. I wonder who is he. Jeng jeng jeng. Okay, all question in the formspring has been replied. So, ask me more people! Or just say HI, certainly 110% I will reply. Heee. Make me laugh, people. Click here, formspring



HELP! Anybody, please help me! Currently im in dilemma. Oh boy. I called my sis and she told me go ask dad first. Adeh. Then I told mom bout it. Mom pulak, "Ha, camne tu?". Sigh. Orang tanya dia, dia tny aku balik? -_- A few minutes later, I told dad pulak. Dad pun jwb sebiji cm mom ckp. Duhh. Fikiran ku buntu. Wahh. Hahaha.

I called up my friendS. Yeah. FRIENDS. Got S behind there. LOL. Nobody pick up the phone! Faint! Sedih gila. Around 6-ish, I got phone call from this company so I have an interview tomorrow at Jalan Raja Chulan, idk which company cause should be she will send me an email but till now I didnt receive anything? Sokay, I will call them tomorrow. So, interview at 3.30pm.

Went for dinner with sistah at Hartamas. While makan, I text-ed Tyra and I said, my phone so damn fcukin lonely right now. Hahaha. Then she replied me "Tadaaa. Dah x lonely. LOL". Hahaha. Thats funny -_- LOL! But I didnt wait from your text wey. Haha. Me and sis had tok. I told her what im going through now. Not all only certain things je. After that I received a phone call from YOU! Lol. You know who you are. So, I LOL-ed again. Finally today, im smiling. Thanks to you. Heee.

After reach home, I went audi with Tyra. Gahh. I miss you alot ni. Sigh. Had audi till 11.30pm then we continue play games at msn. I won UNO! Woots woots. Juara bertahan UNO ni wey. Jangan main-main. Hahaha. Aww. Rindu nya nak main UNO dgn Soleha, Fahmi, Ariff, Faiz, Zrina and Ili. I just love to play UNO cause im good at it! LOL. Oh yeh, btw today I received phone call from The Star company. U guys still remembered my last post? I went to OU for an interview an? Ha, they called me and they want me to come for a second interview on Two Feb.

Iskk. I kan dah start keje on the 2nd? Sigh. Ha, tu la yang dilemma skrg ni. Nvm la. Later we see how eh.
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chapter 167 : How to install LOVE
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Im having a bad broken heart and I decided to install a new LOVE version into me. I woke up at 3.30pm today. LOL. Sure berat jodoh dah pasni. Sigh -_- Okay, then I went alone to the Low Yat at Bukit Bintang. I went into lots of shop but only 1 shop je yang ada this new LOVE version.

Lucky me, I dun have to pay anything. Its free! Woots woots! Why? Because the shop is trying the new LOVE version for free for the two first customer. Heee. Im so lucky aite? After that, I straight went back home. I cant wait to enjoy my new LOVE version. LOL! Oh oh, I reach home around 6pm. Lucky no traffic jams xD

Here is my conversation between me and the tech support (:

Tech Support: Hello … how can I help you?

ME: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

ME: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

ME: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running ?

ME: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?

ME: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

ME: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

ME: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error - Program not run on external components.” What should I do?

Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

ME: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

ME: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the “My Heart” directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

ME: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

ME: Thank you, God.

Baby, can you format my brain and put a new memory into it? A new one. I want your version. Can you do that for me? Please?

Somehow, I still remembered what he told me before. I need you, my love
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chapter 166 : Random post part 2
Jan 27, 2010 | comment | 10 comment(s)

Seriously, I wanna laugh! LOLOLOL! Someone asked me a question thru my formspring. I found out pun thru traffic. So yeah, I went to formspring and check if he leave any msg or comment or question? The question really make me laugh. At first I go like huh? O.o When I read it again, I LOL-ED! Haha. So, mr anonymous your question has been answered (:

Anyone wanna ask me something or wanna say Hi? You can go here, formspring

Okay, today I went to an interview at Seri Pacific Hotel. And guess what? I will start working on the Second of February Two Zero One Zero which is nex week? Hmm. Alhamdulillah. Dapat jugak kerja akhirnya. LOL. So after this I have nothing to worry bout my streamyx. Yayy me!

Well, nothing much today. After finished the interview, I terus poof. Tido. LOL. Sumpah mengantuk. Sigh. Mom didnt cook for me today. Sian gila. Adeh. So, sebagai seorg anak dara saya kenalah masak sendiri bukan? Since im really lazy ass to cook, I masak simple tapi YUMMY! Hahaha.

Sambal telur dan Ayam masak sos tiram? LOL! Main hentam je nama dia cause for the ayam tu aku main bedal je masak. X ikut resepi mana-mana pun. Main campo je. LOL. Last week I guess? Cant remember. Masak sambal telur jugak. Tapi x sedap! Sumpah failed! LOL. My sister said, sambal tu masam. Agaknya la? Cause terlebih asam jawa agaknya? Faint. So this time, no more asam jawa, baby! Haha. And apa rasa dia? Superb Delicious! Hahaha.

Mula-mula masak ayam tu, bila tengok dalam kuali. Eiii macam x senonoh je aku masak ni. Hahaha. Yela, cam tah pape tau. Macam main masak-masak pulak. But then bila rasa, uhmmmm. Fantastic! Hahaha. You wanna know the recipe? Do ask me (:
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chapter 165 : And baby, you're my disease
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Baby baby
When we first met I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

Gahh. Im so depress right now. Sometimes I just wanna give up but .... Sigh. Im so down. Yeah, baby. Im so down. And it's all because of you. I did. I did try my best to forget bout things that happen between us but it keep coming into my head and make me so weak.

Lax Farah. Lax. Dont let the tears fall down again. Urghh. Be strong. Sigh. I cant!! Im not strong enough just like you who just ignore all this matter. Im a sensitive person so I take seriously on everything.

.....................................

Im running out of words =/

........................................................

I stare at the screen for nothing =/

I miss you. I miss us. I miss the moment we laugh together. The moment that we spent our time together. I just miss every single thing about you! Why cant you see?!

I want you stand by my side and says .... "Everything is gonna be alright. Im promise" At least, with that words can make me feel better. Sigh. Even a bit? But still. I feel so lost and I wish my heart has a map and can show me where should I go.

Convince me that you never leave me! And tell me that you never give up on me! Please?
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chapter 164 : Shopping.
Jan 26, 2010 | comment | 2 comment(s)


I went out to OU with my beloved sister. vomit -_- HAHAHA. She's on leave today so yeah we went out together. She woke me up at 12pm and I went bathe blablabla so gerak dari rumah 1.30pm kot? Reach OU at 2pm. And wooahh. Weekdays pun parking penuh ye? -_- I wondering apa la you guys buat. Agak semakkan lot parking je -_-

Why OU? Cause OU is big and lots of shop! LOL! That is what she told me la kan. She planning to shop and me? Tukang tengok la. $$$ tarak. Haha. Damn! Now sales for CNY. Sigh. Oh yeh the car parking fee so cheap. Only RM1 per entry**. Heh ada star star (**) means ada la maksud tersirat tu. Jangan caye sgt RM1. But that time mmg I kena bayar RM1 je. Hahaha.

Firstly, we go makan at pizza hut. Yummy yummy. Its been long time I didnt eat pizza. Yela, sejak unemployed ni kan. Hahaha. And at the same time Im having stomach pain. Aww. Benci! After that, we went to nichii. She bought a few tops which Im the one who choose for her. Seriously, she memang x reti nak fashion. Oops =x HAHA. Thats why she bring me along. LOL. She supposed to hang out with her boyfriend but I dunno what happen. Aww. Hugs*

Then, she bought a ballet shoes and a sandal and I choose for her jugak -_- Then went to PADINI she bought me a new kemeja. Thanks sis. I choose long sleeve cause lagi proper kot? Haha. White color and got purple stripes (: Why not pink? Cause all the pink color SO FUGLEH! So, jalan-jalan and we stop at this one jelly shop. They made jelly LIVE! Lol.

Im not sure what design they are doing actually. So I just watch and o.o ohhh. Begitu. Haha. Time is tickin. It shows 6-ish and we decided to go bak and still my stomach pain gilaa. Before we reach home, we slack at Safiz, Hartamas. Makan-makan and had tok tok and tok and I reach home around 8.

After bathe, as usual im facing the monitor and dad came from behind and told me tomorrow I have to go an interview at Seri Pacific Hotel. He already arrange everything for me. Thanks, dad. So, wish me luck guys (:

p/s : Lucky I bought the kemeja. Im sooo gonna wear it tomorrow =p
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chapter 163 : Dear, readers.
Jan 25, 2010 | comment | 4 comment(s)



Im not showing off or anything. It just im SHOCK O.O
Walao. I never know I got silent reader before? Lols. And Hannah, yeah this post is for you! LOL. Thanks for reading my blog. I really appriciate it and keep reading yeh (:

Yesterday I sleep at 5am in the morning. I cant sleep as usual. So I went to my blog and kinda lots of ppl says my blog is interesting? LOL! U guys sure anot? Haha. When I read back my post, im so pathetic wey. Lots of emo post and stupid stuff blablabla -_-
But seriously, thanks guys for coming and do click the nuffnang! Tehee xD

Oh btw, I would love to put the comment thingy for each post that I wrote but I cant. I dunno why? Im still figuring it out. Its more easier I guess for u guys to drop any comment. But nevermind, I do own cbox. So say HI or HELLO or HEY to me! LOL!
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chapter 162 : Rush hour
Jan 24, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Gahh. What a tiring day. Sigh. I set alarm @ 11.30am and woke up @ 1.30pm. I keep snooze the alarm. Lol. Im kinda rushing cause I have an interview today @ One Utama. Went to OU with Ariff and reach there around 3.30pm. They close at 4pm so still sempat lagi la :D

So, the interview? Okay je and macam biasa la ayat ni mesti kuar punya "So, in 1 or 2 weeks, we will give u a call". Yada yada. After that me and him went for makan @ McDonalds. Yummy yummy. Dah lama x mkn McD. Lol. Then we went for a walk. Jalan-jalan. Besar betul OU ye. Gaya cam xnah gi plak. Hahaha. I hate OU. Seriously. The shopping mall like so damn fcukin big! They got new wing and old wing which kinda confusing @@

Oh, suddenly I remembered. At OU ada garden. Hehe. So both of us went to the upper roof and guess what? We lost. Again. LOL. See, OU so confusing! Urghh. Finally we found the Secret Garden. Nice place and nice jugak Ariff didnt bring his camera. Rugi. Lol. The garden quite big la and quite messy dgn pokok-pokok tu semua -_-

Ariff is going back to Jerantut on this tuesday. Im gonna miss you. So yeh, we spent our time together and what we did? We chill out at McDonalds and wifi together. LOL. I never get chance to online at the outside with him, so yeah. We slack and tok tok and tok. Online blablabla. Best. Santai je. Heee. We reach there at 8pm and went bak home around 2-ish.

We bought nasi lemak at Kampung Baru for supper. Woahh. Gila kenyang. Ariff ate 5 nasi lemak and me? 3 bungkus. LOL. Lucky nasi lemak tu kecik-kecik je. Besa tapak tangan. LOL. Now, nasi lemak rm1 or rm2 an? Yang ni, baru rm0.70 je so mmg sesuai lah harga dengan benda tu kan. Small je (:

After that, I audi till 5 and yeah Ariff end up sleep at my house. LOL.
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chapter 161 : I'm waiting for you
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I dunno wth is my phone. I cannot find it. Sigh. Just now I throw it away but dunno dia poof ke mana. Lol. Im so bored. I cant sleep. Its 4.59am and im still awake. Heh. Macam x biasa plak. Lol. I should sleep early cause im going for an interview at One Utama today.

Nowadays, my phone kinda lonely. Yeah, super duper lonely cause no text receive and no incoming call. Rasa macam nak off je phone tu. Malas nak pakai dah. Bila fikir balik, susah pulak. If any emergency or anything aite. Tapi cam sakit hati. LOL. If dulu, rajin la jugak, nak text, nak call. Asyik ringing je phone tu. Now, nak dgr pun susah dah. Ada jugak receive text tapi from hotlink la. Lol -_-

Ada hari tu, saje off phone for 1 day. So the next day I switch on, heh. Satu message pun xda. Gosh. Hampa gila. Bukan I x msg frens or whoever. I did. Betul, I did wey. But no one reply me -_- Agak sakit hati la. LOL. Im waiting. Im waiting for you. Hmm. Okay, im so lonely now. Bored. Emo. Iskk. Go away you stupid hormones! I hate youuu!

Today, I went to audi. I asked kuno to come arena cause he never join the event before. So yeh. I lose at the first round. Sigh. Damnlah. Sumpah xda mood nak press langsung. Then Tyra came. So the couple mushy-mushy in front of me. That is so annoying -_- and im a bit jealous. LOL! Gay -_-

Whatever la. zzzzz
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chapter 160 : The 3 Bitches.
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Credit to Amilia Haida. She's the one yang create benda ni. Since sekolah lagi. Dia memang xda keje. Cikgu suruh study, dia duk buat benda-benda mcmni. LOL. But bagus jugak. Hais, I miss them so much. I known Amilia since form 1 @ Kiaramas. Yeah she's the one yang say HI to me first. LOL. After that, we become closer. I think I introduce Puvana kot kat dia? Cant remember. I known Puva since primary school lagi. Agak lama. Teehee. Then 3 of us jadi rapat and we "conquer" the school yaw. LOL.

When I was in form 2, I got new teacher for English subject. God damnit! I hate her! Idk why I hate her so much. Maybe she so straight kot? I was in 2A, Puva in 2B, Amilia in 2C kot? ABC. Lol. So 1 day, I makan bubblegum in her class then she saw I chew. She suruh I buang kot? Then I refuse cause I baru je makan bubblegum tu! Kan membazir! Haha. So yeah, she scold me blablabla then she cubit my lengan. LOL! Then she halau me from her class and guess what? I kick the class door. Heh. Nak tnjuk tanda protes la sbnrnya. LOL. So yeah, I runaway and that time I realize I bring my liquid paper together. So... jeng jeng.

That time I was in the toilet. Looking at the mirror, take out the liquid paper from my pocket and I wrote at the mirror "Sheerah is a bitch!". LOL! So, I puas hati! Haha. Sheerah is my English teacher. Well, since that case. Im the first one who start conteng-conteng ni kot? Cause kiaramas is a new school. So, xda vandalisme lagi la and I start it first. After that, makin ramai pulak yang conteng toilet. LOL. Because of that case kot me, Puva and Amilia kena cuci toilet? HAHAHA. Sumpah funny and we had fun. Lol. Since im so damn fcukin anti with this indian teacher ni kan, one day her car kena calar kot? Idk sapa gatal tgn yg scratch? So, sheerah ni face to face dengan I and she said she nak report police if I x ngaku I yang calarkan kereta dia. WTF? Oi, I never do that okay? Kurang asam. Tah sapa nak trap aku. LOL. Even until now, I still dunno who did it.


Then we find out ada orang conteng our name behind the door toilet. 3 bitches. Amilia, Farahin, and Puva. Our school toilet, dalam tu only got 3. So each name at the door la. The main door ada tiga-tiga nama. We go like WTF? Who did this? Wahh, sangat berani ya?! Hahaha. Ni mesti keje budak-budak x guna an? Hahaha.

We kinda active in school. We joined sketsa, drama, oh yeah! tarian zapin too! Haha. X sangka dulu aku menari tarian zapin. LOL. The picture abit blur. Sorry. The right one is Nevia. I cant remember when issit tapi we create our own group. Frictional Force? FF? lols. Yeah. Ramai jugak ahli-ahli yang turut serta. We slalu keluar masuk school office la. The reason is slalu buat hal. Lol. The teacher asked the parent to come over at the school and blablabla. Lucky x kena gantung sekolah. Lol. So, I left kiaramas when I was in form 4 (January). Then I went to technic.

Last I met Nevia 1 year ago. Sigh. Susah tul nak jumpa old friend skrg ni. Amilia in UITM, Puva in TAR college kot? not sure. And me? Dun ask me. Haha. I stay at home je for now. Lols. So now people changed. Puva da ada boyfriend. Oh yeah, dulu ingat lagi. Puva ada crush dkt chinese guy in our school. So the guy confess nak couple and all last-last he kenakan Puva and Puva really upset. Adeh. Teruk an? Our love life? Sangat menarik cause we love to change boyfriend in weeks. Lol.

And its normal la, in friendship sure gaduh-gaduh an? Kitorg pun ada. And im sorry for what I did. Past is past. Alhamdulillah till now we are still friends (:

I love you, guys
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chapter 159 : I need you.
Jan 23, 2010 | comment | 1 comment(s)

Went to GB website and I found this one post kinda interesting. So I went to her blog and read it. At first rasa macam "Awww. How sweet!". Then when I read it again, tears rolled down pulak. Haish.

This gonna be a long post. If you wanna read it, go ahead but if you dont want to you can press alt f4 (:
This is the story and here is the source, click here

Suami saya adalah seorang jurutera, saya mencintai sifatnya yang semulajadi dan saya menyukai perasaan hangat yang muncul di hati saya ketika bersandar di bahunya. Selama 3 tahun dalam masa tahun perkenalan dan 2 tahun dalam masa pernikahan, saya harus akui bahawa saya mulai merasa letih, lelah, alasan-alasan saya mencintainya dulu telah berubah menjadi sesuatu yang menjemukan. Saya seorang wanita yang sentimental dan benar- benar sensitif serta berperasaan halus. Saya merindui saat-saat romantis seperti seorang anak kecil yang sentiasa mengharapkan belaian ayah dan ibunya. Tetapi, semua itu tidak pernah saya perolehi. Suami saya jauh berbeza dari yang saya harapkan. Rasa sensitifnya kurang. Dan ketidakmampuannya dalam menciptakan suasana yang romantis dalam perkahwinan kami telah mematahkan semua harapan saya terhadap cinta yang ideal.

Suatu hari, saya beranikan diri untuk mengatakan keputusan saya kepadanya, bahawa saya inginkan penceraian. “Mengapa? ” Dia bertanya dengan nada terkejut. “ Siti letih, Abang tidak pernah cuba memberikan cinta yang saya inginkan. “ Dia diam dan termenung sepanjang malam di depan komputernya, nampak seolah-olah sedang mengerjakan sesuatu, padahal tidak. Kekecewaan saya semakin bertambah, seorang lelaki yang tidak dapat mengekspresikan perasaannya, apalagi yang boleh saya harapkan daripadanya? Dan akhirnya dia bertanya. “ Apa yang boleh Abang lakukan untuk mengubah fikiran Siti? ”. Saya merenung matanya dalam-dalam dan menjawab dengan perlahan.

“ Siti ada 1 soalan, kalau Abang temui jawapannya di dalam hati Siti, Siti akan mengubah fikiran Siti ; seandainya, Siti menyukai sekuntum bunga cantik yang ada di tebing gunung dan kita berdua tahu jika Abang memanjat gunung itu, Abang akan mati. Apakah yang akan Abang lakukan untuk Siti? ”. Dia termenung dan akhirnya berkata, “ Abang akan memberikan jawapannya esok”. Hati saya terus gundah mendengar responnya itu. Keesokan paginya, dia tidak ada di rumah, dan saya menemui selembar kertas dengan coretan tangannya di bawah sebiji gelas yang berisi susu hangat yang bertuliskan…

‘ Sayangku, Abang tidak akan mengambil bunga itu untukmu, tetapi izinkan Abang untuk menjelaskan alasannya ”. Kalimah pertama itu menghancurkan hati saya. Namun, saya ingin terus membacanya,

“….Siti boleh mengetik di komputer dan selalu mengusik program di dalamnya dan akhirnya menangis di depan monitor, Abang harus memberikan jari-jari Abang supaya boleh membantu Siti untuk memperbaiki program tersebut. Siti selalu lupa membawa kunci rumah ketika Siti keluar, dan Abang harus memberikan kaki Abang supaya boleh menendang pintu, dan membuka pintu untuk Siti ketika pulang. Siti suka jalan-jalan di Shopping Kompleks tetapi selalu tersasar dan ada ketikanya sesat di tempat-tempat baru yang Siti kunjungi, Abang harus mencari Siti dari satu lot kedai ke satu lot kedai yang lain mencarimu dan membawa Siti pulang ke rumah. “ Siti selalu sengal-sengal badan sewaktu ‘ teman baik ’ Siti datang setiap bulan, dan Abang harus memberikan tangan Abang untuk memicit dan mengurut kaki Siti yang sengal itu. Siti lebih suka duduk di rumah, dan Abang selalu risau Siti akan menjadi ‘ pelik ’.

"Dan Abang harus membelikan sesuatu yang dapat menghiburkan Siti di rumah atau meminjamkan lidah Abang untuk menceritakan hal- hal kelakar yang Abang alami. Siti selalu menatap komputer, membaca buku dan itu tidak baik untuk kesihatan mata Siti, Abang harus menjaga mata Abang agar ketika kita tua nanti, Abang dapat menolong mengguntingkan kuku dan memandikanmu. Tangan Abang akan memegang tangan Siti, membimbing menyelusuri pantai, menikmati matahari pagi dan pasir yang indah. Menceritakan warna-warna bunga yang bersinar dan indah seperti cantiknya wajahmu. Tetapi sayangku, Abang tidak akan mengambil bunga itu utuk mati. Kerana, Abang tidak sanggup melihat airmatamu mengalir menangisi kematian Abang…
"

"Sayangku, Abang tahu, ada ramai oang yang boleh mencintaimu lebih daripada Abang mencintai Siti. Untuk itu sayang, jika semua yang telah diberikan oleh tangan, kaki, mata Abang tidak cukup bagi Siti, Abang tidak akan menahan diri Siti mencari tangan, kaki dan mata lain yang dapat membahagiakan Siti." Airmata saya jatuh ke atas tulisannya dan membuatkan tintanya menjadi kabur, tetapi saya tetap berusaha untuk terus membacanya lagi, “….Dan sekarang, Siti telah selesai membaca jawapan Abang. Jika Siti puas hati dengan semua jawapan ini, dan tetap inginkan Abang tinggal di rumah ini, tolong bukakan pintu rumah kita, Abang sekarang sedang berdiri di luar sana menunggu jawapan Siti. Tetapi, jika Siti tidak puas hati, sayangku…biarkan Abang masuk untuk mengemas barang-barang Abang, dan Abang tidak akan menyulitkan hidupmu. Percayalah, bahagia Abang bila Siti bahagia ”.

Saya terpegun. Segera mata memandang pintu yang terkatup rapat. Lalu saya segera berlari membukakan pintu dan melihatnya berdiri di depan pintu dengan wajah gusar sambil tangannya memegang susu dan roti kesukaan saya. Oh! Kini saya tahu, tidak ada orang yang pernah mencintai saya lebih dari dia mencintai saya. Itulah cinta, di saat kita merasa cinta itu telah beransur-ansur hilang dari hati kita kerana kita merasa dia tidak dapat memberikan cinta dalam “kewujudan” yang kita inginkan, maka cinta itu telah hadir dalam “kewujudan” yang tidak pernah kita bayangkan sebelum ini…..
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chapter 158 : They turn me on.
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Boys over Flowers is the third television drama adaptation of the popular Japanese manga Hana Yori Dango. It is a drama and romantic comedy series created by Kamio Yoko.

It stared Geo Hye Sun as Geum Jan Di; and Lee Min Ho, Kim Hyun-joong, Kim Bum, and Kim Joon as F4 Goo Joon Pyo, Yoon Ji Hoo, So Yi Jung, and Song Woo Bin respectively.

This is a story of an average girl Jan Di who met the four richest and most spoiled and powerful boys known as the F4. Jan Di who stands by her decision to fight the F4 due their bullying acts became the only one who stood up to F4 specially with their leader Jun Pyo. Eventually, as Jan Di spends more time with F4 Jun Pyo develops feelings towards her but Jan Di's eyes is into someone else. But as Jan Di teaches Jun Pyo a lot of things Jun Pyo also teaches Jan Di to learn to open herself to his love as well.

Okay, enough with the synopsis ni sume. What im tryin to say here is FARAH IS ADDICTED WITH THIS KOREAN DRAMA! fullstop. LOL. Kalau x tengok 1 hari memang x sah. Adakah aku agak out dated? Baru skrg nk tgk drama ni? HAHA. Ske hati aku la. LOL.

Actually camni. Do you guys still remember my previous post? Im addicted to this one song kan "because im stupid - ss501". So, I search @ youtube then dia OST drama ni la. Dalam hati, best sgt ke drama ni? Pelik gak sampai my assistant manager kat legend dlu an, sibuk suruh tgk drama ni and at the same time she asked me to dload for her. Her review? She give 5 and a half star kot for this drama? Lol. Ada jugak dengar-dengar dari friends, they said drama ni best blablabla.

Honestly, I dun really watch tv la unless ada movie yang menarik ke, baru lah tengok. Tapi... cerita-cerita korea macam ni agak kureng la. Dulu minat la, time winter sonata, autumn in my heart dlu. Sampai siap beli CD lagu drama dia. Ha, amek kau! LOL. Pastu, tahla. Tatau nape dah x minat dah. So yeah.. Now dah ketagih plak dah ngn drama ni sampai termimpi-mimpi. HAHAHAHAHA.

Adeh, I susah la. If da addict ngn satu benda mesti bawak mimpi. Example nye cite Twilight tu. Ha! Mimpikan Edward Cullen smpi 2 minggu! Amek! Demam Edward Cullen. LOL. Since that case I try not to watch twilight over and over again. If ada kat astro pun terus bukak channel lain. Takut termimpi mamat tu lagi. LOL. Scary sia.
So in this drama, I think I da fall in love dengan Ji Hoo. Blush xD I just love his character in this drama. Cool je. Tah. Ske tgk dia. Haha. Shy uh. LOL! Everytime see his scene rasa nak screammmm. Tapi apa yang beta mampu buat? Scream jugak tapi cover ngn pillow. LOL. So, I pun nak jadi one of them la. To people yang x watch lagi, tengok la. Walaupun, I still have more episodes to catch up, x habis lagi tgk sbnrnya. HAHAHA. Tapi, mmg best. Nangis jugak la tengok =p
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chapter 157 : Hey you, lets talk!
Jan 22, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

  • Meet new people

  • Think positive

  • Go shopping! (xda duit =/ )

  • Cheer up and laugh like there is no tomorrow

  • Try not to think too much

  • Just let it gooo. Warghhhh!
Yeah baby! Go farah go! You can do it! LOL! Lame la -_- . Dee called me. Oh my. Sumpah I lega gila when I talked to her okay! Thanks babe! We talked alot pasal shopping la, colors la, boys la. LOL. Its fun and yeah I almost forget my problem when I talked to her. Feel like beban tu hilang for awhile. Even only for awhile but syukur gila la.

I try not to cry when I talked to her and yeahhhh. I didnt cry. Err oni 1 drop jela jatuh but still! Hahahaha! Maybe I think too much kot since im period now an. So, the bad bad naughty hormones tu keep disturbing me! Urghhh. Go awayyy!! I hate yuhhh! Jahat gila hormones-hormones tu. Bencii =/

I will try to x fikir sangat and x nak terlalu ikutkan perasaan. Hmm.. Jys me! Lols. Since im in this condition jgn harap la nak happy sgt an? But I will try not to be sooooo emo la (:

Im finding a person who can make me laugh till stomach hurts. Lols. Anyone wanna give a try?
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chapter 156 : You tell me lies.
Jan 21, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I dont believe it. FAKE! Sigh. I give up on life. I had enough. This week is hard for me. All thing come mcm kena shoot? Faint. Im so tired. I wanna resttt. I wanna sleep and I dun wanna wake up anymore. I feel scared to live again. I dunno where should I go? Who should I turn to? I have no one now. Im totally 100% LOST!

Im deleting all my love song. I wish I can format my brain and put a new memory. Sigh. Im so weak! I cannot take it anymore. I need help! Please help me! Take this pain away! Anyone here wanna be my hero? Sigh. No one. I know. Im not happy. Im not happy with my life. Life sucks and getting so gay! Arghh, fcuk!

There is no hope so I stop hoping. I dun wanna hope on something that I wont have it. Im sick of hoping!
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chapter 155 : Cupcake made by ME!
Jan 20, 2010 | comment | 3 comment(s)

I made cupcakes today! Weeee! Clap clap clap! Finally I did it. Haha. After so long an. I started at 5pm in the evening -_- lols. Cause I woke up kinda late. Maybe around 3-ish kot? Cant remember. Oh btw, sorry I din update. Im kinda busy. Yeah busy playing with my emotion. Lols. So yeah, today im in the mood to blogging and I need more moneyyyy $_$
Spam the nuffnang, baby! Haha.

I took the recipe from website. For info, click here. So for the frosting pun from the same website. Click la. Got alot of information bout cupcakes. They got show how to decorate cupcakes blablabla. Wah, promoto blog minah tu plak. Haha. Before that, I search @ youtube - Decoration for cupcakes. I need some ideas, people (:

I think I didnt use the exactly cup for cupcakes but who cares? Bukan I nak jual pun. Lols. And here I show you guys the pictures xD


I made cheesy cupcakes. So, got cheese inside. Yummy yummy. Haha. At first, I try to bake 5 cupcakes I guess? Just nak see see jadi ke x. Lol. First trial tu jadi! Woots! But I didnt taste it. So I dunno sedap or not. I didnt take any photos when I made the frosting cause damn busy! Suddenly x ckup butter. So yeah, went to kedai then continue balik buat frosting. Berpeluh jugak la. Lol.



Kat website tu ckp, leh dapat dlm 12-15 cupcakes. So I make it double! Shud be dapat dlm 20 sumthing la kan? tapi hampeh. Dapat dlm 18 ketul je. Hahaha!
I give it to my sis and I ask her how issit taste. Nice or not. Haha. The cupcakes SUPERB DELICIOUS WEY! hahaha. Sumpah bangga gila buat. First time buat kot. Yummy gila! LOL. Im proud of myself! Lol. Nanti nak wat bday cake pulak =p

The next day, open ice box, oni left 2 je? wth? zzzzzzzz. Thats mean sedap la tu =p
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chapter 154 : Tiring day
Jan 19, 2010 | comment | 3 comment(s)

Tomorrow im gonna make cupcake! Im promise! hahaha. This time, xda tangguh-tangguh lagi da. Hee xD

I slept at 8.30am. Eh wait. No. I think its around 9 I guess? Yeah. Around 9am. Lols. Then wake up at 12pm, bathe and all went to chow kit road, I bought the cup, shortening blablabla. So semua barang dah complete. Esok kita mulakan operasi! Yeay! =p

Im abit down today. So yeah, bangun tidur dengan mata yang sembab-sembab. Haish, serabut gila la. Since tyra is around I told her bout it. Nak cite kat leya nnt dia nag itu la ini la. Malas la nak dengar. Lol. Im planning to switch off my phone. Gedik an? Ske ati aku la. Haha. Bila fikirkan balik, if ada job offer camne? Ha..

Seriously, I dont have enough rest cause tidur x cukup and guess what? Currently im addicted with Boys Over Flower drama. Rofl. Drama itu sangat menarik perhatian beta. LOL.
Im planning to make some changes to my desktop. Saje. Boring. Lols. Currently, this is my desktop.

click for larger image (:

I think im gonna find more wallpapers (:
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chapter 153 : The first and last.
Jan 18, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Currently im listening to - ss501 - Because Im Stupid.
Im thinking bout you all the time (:

Today is Monday. I hate you Mr.Monday! Youre so bad, mean and err. Whatever lah! I hate you! LOL. My previous post, im planning to do cupcake aite? X jadi aite? So today, dengan semangat nya nak buat la. I search @ google where I can find the stupid cup for cupcake but there is no result yang memuaskan hati beta. Sigh.

I asked help from Tyra. She told me got one kedai @ Chow Kit near PizzaHut there yang jual benda-benda camtu la. diao. So I went to Chow Kit and good la. Nice la. The shop already close. Sigh. Kau! Suka hati mak bapak kau kan nak tutup nak bukak kedai kau! Kau ingat aku datang x guna minyak ke hah! Sakit hati aku, kau tau x! Ada x kau fikir, if ada org nak datang ke pasni tu sume. Bodoh la! Bila aku cakap bodoh, kau marah. Sigh. Sorry. Terlebih emo plak. Sigh -_-

Its fuckin raining here. So mandi hujan la. I never mandi hujan before and yeah I got headache already. Damn! This is my first and last experience! I swear I wont go out if its goin to rain. Hell no! Dah banyak dah dosa tersurat arini cause macam-macam words keluar dah. Hahaha.

A few minutes ago, mom ask me not to sleep today. Wtf? -_- Im not a robot, mom. I need sleep too like other people. Im active @ night. rofl. Tamo dirty minded tau =p
Yeah, I active @ night and I sleep late. So mum ask me not to sleep and when siang go to Chow Kit again and buy that stupid cup. InsyaAllah la, mum. Tengok la keadaan camne. LOL.

After bathe, I found one paper on the floor and it says Ain, tolong vacuum bilik. Thank you! (:
I wish I can show her the middle finger. Hahaha.
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chapter 152 : Hello, GB-ians !
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I just joined Geng Blogger this morning. Well at first I never think I will join it? Cause im not the type yang suka benda-benda camni? Hahaha. I found Geng Blogger through ariff. Thanks to him jugak. Sudah! Tayah nak bangga diri! zzz. lol. I asked him how to join blablabla. He teach me and yeah. Hello GB-ians. Im noob so dont bully? LOL.

Geng blogger should credit me this cause im promoting their site! LOL. I went sleep at 7am and I woke up at 3.30pm. Nice or not? Haha. Im having insomnia la. Remember? Duh. lol. After that, I on my pc and I go WTF?! WOW! Ramai dah spam my cbox? This is soooooooooo cool wey! Hahaha. Thanks people for coming. I really appriciate it. And I lagi appriciate if you guys click my nuffnang. HAHAHAHA.

Then I went to nuffnang. Wahh. Duit pun da makin naik. Clap clap. Even x seberapa but not bad la. At least I earn something from nothing an? Im new in nuffnang and in blogger too. Before this I din update really much. Busy with game, study, life etc. So yeah. Now im so free like reallyyyy free! Haha. I hope I can update more (:

Basically, I blog bout myself. My daily routine. What happen to Farah blablabla. Sometimes if ada idea, I will blog bout love stuff or anything la. Cause when I see other blogger, they blog about artist, tutorial, gossips blablabla. Sorry, im not really interested with that unless I ada mood to blog about it, I will blog la. Depends (:
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chapter 151 : If you go away, you will see me cry
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You never say good bye,
For a while I sat absent mindedly and emptily
And I thought over again, but I couldn’t stop
I despise myself for having no choice but to think about you all the time

Don’t you let me go,
baby, don’t you let me down

Suddenly I remember this word, "Never Say Goodbye". So I search it @ youtube. I never watch My Girl before. Same goes Boys Over Flower movie. Never watch them. So im planning to dload both kot? Or maybe just Boys Over Flower? (:
I love the song. It really nice and the lyrics too!

After that, I watch his replay @ auditionsea. Finally I got time to watch it. lols. Did I tell you I pass my level 35 license? Heee :D Last exp was 95% kot? So I decided to level up by today (:
I pass-ed and when you come back I will show you the replay, alright? *wink*

Lil told me I look like a japanese girl in msn. He made me LOL-ed. Really? Aww. Thanks. Haha. Tyra told me I look like a barbie doll? ROFL. hahaha. Dah dah. Tamo riak dah. X elok. Tamo ikut behaviour cam orang tu. Riak je keje dia. Hahaha.

Its 5.39am in the morning. I still cant sleep. I think im having insomnia right now. Lols.
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chapter 150 : I think im okay for now.
Jan 17, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I keep awake 2, 3, 4 times. And I keep waiting from your text hope you will say "Good Night", "Take Care", or "Goodbye".

But I didnt receive anything. Only text from Hotlink, "Credit anda hampir luput. Sila tambah jumlah untuk blablabla". Bukan text tu yang I tunggu! Gggrr!!

So I wake up and yeah. I try to live without you. So I should do something fun to cheer me up aite? Lols. I planning to make cupcake today but ........................... hampeh. X jadi lagi. The reason is GOSH! I HAVE NO MOOD TO DO ANYTHING!

Sis asked me to go out with her. At first im so lazy bum to go out cause I have no cash and no mood but then when I think back, I should go out. Meet people, laugh and do some fun stuff? Duduk rumah je, bosan jugak aite. So went out with sis to One Utama and we decided to watch a movie. As usual, she wont watch my movies. So I have to follow her since she gonna pay for it.

We watch malay movie. Faint. Adnan Sempit Movie. LOL. Okay la not bad. I laugh-ed. LOL! That movie make me LOL-ed. Kinda fun and interesting jugak. After that, we went to Safiz, Hartamas. We bought roti canai for dinner. Hahaha. After reach home, eat eat and eat and watch Raja Lawak. Sumpah x lawak langsung! I tertido when I watch it. Gayyy ;diao

I wake up at 10pm and mom scold me for nothing. Actually not nothing but adalah something and it really spoil my mood. Bangun2 je dah kena marah. zzz. I told tyra bout it. Sigh.

And guess what? I din online audi for 1 day :D
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chapter 149 : Because Im stupid
Jan 16, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)


Even though you could’ve been mine
Even though it was my own mistake
Could you forgive me and take me under your wings
I’m forever crying for you
I’m forever, just missing for you
Baby I love you, Im waiting for you

I hear dis song over and over again. I just love this song. The lyrics means alot to me. I just cant stop smiling right now. I went to nuffnang and I found out my analytics already up and I know he went to my blog too. Im sorry I didnt update much. Im promise, I will update just for you :D

So, whats new? Nothing much. I din make cupcake today. First, I spend my time with audi. lol. Second, I cannot find the cup. Third, I no mood to do anything. So yeah. I just slack at home and play audi.

Currently im in dilemma. I dunno should I go to work this monday or not. Corus Hotel seems very far from my house. I have to take 2 train. First from Segambut to KL Sentral then take another train to KLCC. After that I have to walk 5 minutes to reach there. Walao. Sure penat. Before reach hotel je dah sweating kot? Hahaha.

I asked my mum, sis, ariff, and some of my friends. SHOULD I GO TO WORK THIS MONDAY? lol. Anyone? Total transport fee for 1 day is RM10. Sigh. Dulu RM2 je. RM8, leh makan McDonalds dah. lol.

Im abit emo today. Well not only today. Since yesterday rasanya. Dont ask me why cause im soooo not gonna tell you why. Let it be my little secret. Im so down till I cant stop crying. I think I need a hug from someone to cool me down and... Wipe my tears. Hold my hand and say everything is gonna be alright even is not. LOL. Gahh. Gedik. LOL.

I think im gonna sleep early today. Lols.
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chapter 148 : Blablabla part 3
Jan 15, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Im planning to make cupcakes this weekend. So I went to NSK, buy all the stuff and yes farhan request me to write "viagra" on the cupcake? LOL. Sure I will -_-

Do anyone knows how to hapuskan resdung? LOL. Ads jap. haha. Im having a bad one. Well, not really bad. It will attack me every morning and that is gay. No one can kacau me when im having a bad flu! Cause i will change to become a monster. LOL. hidup agak x terurus that time. i swear dowh. lol. So do anyone know? Do inform me yeh :)

Soo.. Leya got a new couple. Gratz yang. I hope u two will last long . She sounds so happy. that is great xD Im happy for her btw. Oh guess what, she couple with a chinese boy =p

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The tears rolled down again. Because of you. I try to put a smile on my face but I cant. My heart is broken with the decision that you made.
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chapter 147 : Life is hard
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This is the exactly how I feel right now. Im not sure what I want in this life. I dunno who I wanna be with. I dunno what I wanna be in future. Even I dunno what should I do now?

And... only 1 think in my mind. Im just thinking how Im gonna pay my streamyx? Sigh.
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chapter 146 : One is not enough
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Ariff sleepover at my house and we act like a cat dog. He just love to ruins my day and i hate you for that! zzzz. He tried to make some joke. but i din laugh pun. berbulu lagi ada la. haha. plus he likes to tickle me. urghhh! that is soooooooo annoying! sampai i ter-kick dia! LOL. padan muka!

Im using wifi at home. and yeah. this is what ive been doing the whole day.

I play audi use a desktop and a laptop (:

Like my mom said, "Ko ni dah x cukup dengan satu computer kan?" HAHA. i tag hearts till sian. sigh. and kinda stress cause ariff dload some movies, so yeah the connection abit lag. rawrrr!
lil should credit me this =p

Im so bored. soo i got nothing to do, i online audi and dual login. v3 and v6.
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chapter 145 : Corus Hotel KL.
Jan 13, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I received a phone call from Corus Hotel KL. They ask me to come for an interview. So i did. I went this afternoon. 2 times kena interview. 1st with the HR Manager and second with Front Office Manager. I applied for Front Office Assistant since i got experience from Legend Hotel before.

Went with ariff and yeah i late for the interview. LOL. wow, i never late sia before. this is the first time. sigh. should be at 10.30am. but then 10.30 i baru nak bangun? rofl. So i called them and tell i will be late. so i reach there around 12pm.
abit nervous. idk y. thanks to fauzan. he is one of the HR staff. he cool-ed me down. LOL!

After first interview, i went bak home. cause the second interview is around 2-ish? sigh -_-
so better balik, makan. and rest2 jap. lol. the interview okay la. boleh la. mmg nervous nak mati la. my leg shakin u know! gila. lol. they asked me alot -_- which i tergagap jgk nak jwb la.

So, what is the result? they hired me! woots :D I got that job.
I believe in what kak shinar told me. @ 6pm, i received another phone call from Theme Park Hotel, Genting. They ask me to come for an interview this saturday at 12pm @ Genting. faint. satu keje nak gi genting plak dah. haha. im planning to go. but see how la :)
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chapter 144 : Previous post
Jan 12, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Here are some photos for the previous post.


Home made cookies by ME! haha. Thanks to ariff for his help. and mum too. lol.
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chapter 143 : Who are you?
Jan 11, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)


woots. i think i baru je update blog ni like 1minute ago. then i refresh my blog. dah ada 5 online users yang bukak my blog. wow. ini sangat cool! hahaha. benda ni xpenah tipu i, okay? =p
be jealous, people. LOL!

bukan nak riak. tp kenyataan la. tp rs cm da riak ni. tp whatever la an. blog aku. hahahaha. i wonder who is reading right now. issit you're the one? you! yes you la! LOL! obviously la you tgh baca now an? xkan ghost plak. duh! =p

i wish i can see who read my blog everyday. lol. mne tau dlm diam an i ada secret admire ke? ROFL. sungguh perasan. haha.
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chapter 142 : Blablabla part 2
Jan 10, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Im think about changing my link. my blog link. yeah. this link. treasureinmylife.bs.com. why? saje. for fun. lol. i wanna make something new kot? rasa boring dah ngn link ni. haha.

Two zero one zero. can i make a wish. only one wish? pleaseee?
i wish i can be a NORMAL person. hahaha. i dont think i am normal right now. currently i dont live in normal life. in two zero one zero i wanna be happy! please, please, please. make my dream come true?

oh guess what, hair do grow! so yeah, my hair is getting longer! haha. i never think bout hair cut? but my sis does. she wanna cut her hair soon. so jys la kan? harap2 sesuai ngn ko la. LOL. she ask my opinion too. but tengok jela soon. camne (:

right now im just sitting at home. macam princess wannabe. bangun tidur je, sume dah ready. lol. mom da prepare food and all. lol. best nyaaa. i feel like im livin in heaven! sumpah bosan gila heaven ni. lol. cause duit x masuk. lol.

when i got free time, i am free now. lol. yeah. i start to cook. macam dulu-dulu (:
that day i made cornflakes cookies. uhm. cam x sedap plak nama tu. pe eh org panggil cornflakes butter? ha. cookies tu. lol. ariff was there. so he helped me la kan. (i will upload the pictures later)

soo. nothing much la these few days. just do normal routine and blablabla.
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chapter 141 : Hello
Jan 9, 2010 | comment | 0 comment(s)

"It is a risk to love. What if it doesn't work out?
Ah, but what if it does?"

Leya text me and she told me bout him and im like OH-MY-GOD?! faint. i just hate boys. they always make us hoping on them but they never mean it. babe, try to chillin around, okay? im sure there is someone for you outside there. i know how u feel, babe (:

I dunno what happen to ariff. he got fight with his family and i almost be the victim :S
well, i hope he is doing okay la. tamo la gaduh. x elok. waa. ckp org. i pn kdg2 gaduh gak. haha.

Im sorry for late update. actually i got alot to talk about but sadly the word din come out. plus i dunno what to write. and today, i force myself to update cause of nuffnang. lol. so yeh, im back in blogging. i hope i can blog more and more $$$ from nuffnang. lol.

sooo. whats new? nothing much. a few days ago i went to an interview at bukit bintang. i cant remember what is the company name. keje biasa je. so yeah, until now no feedback. lol. bila fikirkan balik, susah jugak if dpt kat sana cause no transport. train ada mmg ada tapi agak jauh dr station. sigh.

if dpt pun i will think bout it over and over again. duit dah xda ni T_T
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