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chapter 263 : Lost.

Okay, seriously. Im abit confused here. Like WTF WTF WTF. At first I was like "Huh? Okay" then I changed to "HUH?! WHAT THE FCUK?". OMG. Okay, whatever. Maybe im being to negative here. Okay, whatever. Oh so whatever. But. Urghhh! Im stress! I've got so many question to ask like what the heck? Sigh. Where are you, by? :(
Zureen was here. She cool me down. And the tears rolled down like what the fcuk? This is gay. Totally gay! I might be paranoid. But wait. No. Im not. It is just.. I dont know. Im confused and so fcuking blur right now. Seriously, I dont know who can be trusted? I cannot trust even my own friend kot? How lame is that? -.-
chapter 262 : I think I should stop.
If I could dream at night and if those dream come true, I would force myself to sleep at night. So I could dream of you (:

Omgosh. I am so hyper right now. Like really hyper. I cant stop laughing and smiling. LOLOL! Oh gosh. Now, I am so lazy to update my blog. I don't know why. Maybe im too happy kot? Haha. Agree with Amilia. Bila happy, sumpah xda masa nak update blog. Bila down, like damn. Every hour update emo post kan? LOL!

And im happy for her. Finally she have a new boyfriend. Congrats. Seriously, I don't know what to write anymore. All I can say is im happy. I just don't know how to describe. The feeling. Wow, amazing kot? LOL. I don't know la. Maybe dah lama x happy macam ni kot? So, bila dah happy, excited pulak kan? LOL -.-

Note to self :
Farah, don't get too excited okay? (:
chapter 261 : A day with him ♥
Summarize sikit (:

Okay, last saturday went out with Nashriq. Gila x sabar nak jumpa kan? Lol. He woke me up at 7am. Awal gila k sayang? Lol. Then, Tyra text suruh bangun. Blablabla. Wow. I ada 2 alarm la. Cool :D
So, I was rushing gila. Baju semua takda and all. Haha. I hate that situation -_- I should prepare benda tu semua malam tadi kot. Went to pavi and tgk movie and okay la. The movie nice jugak la. Okay la. Yeah. Okay. Kot? But serious la. Okay :D

So, from pavi to klcc and blablabla. Yada, yada and yada. Then he bagi I "chocs" and the "chocs" yummy gila. I suka, by. Ilysm. Kalau boleh memang tanak lepaskan you, okay? LOL. And sumpah, tunggu my bro pick me up till im sweating kot? -_- Dahla lambat plus x sabar nak bukak gift kan? Haha. I love the box. Really. And the card too! And and now I miss him, again (:

So.. So.. Im planning to cut my hair. Maybe end of this month kot? Yupp. End of this month. So, bye bye split end. Haha. That's all I guess? Lately malas nak update :P
chapter 260 : It's all about me, honey.
A

Available: Taken (:
Age: 19 y/o
Animal: I’m afraid of cats -_-

B

Beer: I don't drink.
Birthday: 13th May
Best Friend: You know who you are.
Body Part on opposite sex: Hair
Best feeling in the world: Feeling confident about yourself.
Blind or Deaf: Neither? But if I had to choose, I’ll say deaf. I’d like to see what’s around me.
Best weather: Cloudy?
Been in Love: Currently.
Been on stage : Haha. Yeah (:
Believe in Magic: Nope.
Believe in Santa: Nahh.

C

Candy: Not really.
Color: Baby pink
Chocolate/Vanilla: VANILLA please :D
Chinese/Mexican Food: Mexican I guess
Cake or pie: Cake please!
Cheese: I love cheese cake :P
Crush: Him

D

Day or Night: Night
Dancing in the rain: I would love to (:
Daydream: Yes, always. Haha. Im a daydreamer :P

E

Eye colour: Black.
Everyone’s got: Two hands, One nose, Two eyes, One mouth, and Two ears.
Ever failed a class?: Yupp :P

F

First thoughts waking up: Damn I should have slept earlier last night! HAHA!
Food: I love food. Who doesnt?

G

Greatest Fear: Rejection =/
Goals: Something something. Haha.
Gum: Bubblegum. Yupp.
Get along with your parents?: Not really :S

H

Hair Color: It’s currently dyed brown.
Height: 165cm. Im short -_-
Happy: Being with the ones I love <3
Holiday: I want to go to Paris. Actually I’m dying here so anywhere would do.
How do you want to die: Never think of it.

I

Ice Cream: Vanilla flavor (:
Instrument: Im not really good in instrument.

J

Jewelry: Not so.
Job: The star publication.

K

Kids: I want 4 kids. Haha!
Kickboxing or karate: Neither
Keep a journal?: Nope.

L

Love: is a wonderful feeling.
Letter: Handwritten please <333
Laughed so hard you cried: Yep!

M

Milk flavor: I hate milk.
Movie: Titanic! :D
Motion sickness?: Nope.
McD’s or BK: McD!

N

Number: SEVEN.
Nickname: Farah? Farahin? Ain? Ayeen? Nor Farahin? HAHA.

O

One wish: To have an endless number of wishes.
Only child: Nope

P

Perfect Pizza: pepperoni
Pepsi/Coke: Coke.
Paranoia: I’m paranoid about people leaving me. I’ve lost too many already.
Piercings: One on each ear.

Q

Quail: Eggs are yummy (:

R

Reason to cry: No real reason, it just happens. I’m too fragile.
Reality TV: I dont watch TV
Radio Station: Hitz.fm
Roll your tongue in a circle: Cant :S
Ring size: Not sure

S

Song: Current favourite song - that should be me - justin bieber
Shoe size: 7/8 depending on the cutting.
Salad Dressing: Thousand Island.
Sushi: I LOVE THEM.
Skinny dipped?: Nah.
Strawberries/Blueberries: Neither. Haha.

T

Tattoos?: No way!
Time for bed: When I’m tired.
Thunderstorms: When I’m in bed with someone, cuddling :)

U

Unpredictable: Almost and always.

V

Vacation spot(s): Beach?
Vegetable(s) : Carrot? Haha.

W

Weakness: Sigh.. Plenty. I’m human after all.
Which one of your friends acts the most like you: Hahaha ask them, don’t ask me :D
Who makes you laugh the most: Hmmm, lets see. it's him.
Worst feeling: That I didn’t do my best and will have to bear the consequences.
Wanted to be a model: Err. no? im not rly good looking -_-
Worst Weather?: Hot hot heat with high levels of humidity! LIKE NOW.

X

X-Rays: Uh yeah.

Y

Year it is now: 2010!
Yellow: I dont like yellow.

Z

Zoo animal: I don’t like the zoo much!
Zodiac: Taurus.
chapter 259 : Anything can happen if you let it.
Everyone says that love hurts, but that's not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuse these things with love. But in reality, LOVE is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and make us feel wonderful again.

When I was a little girl, I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet prince charming and he's everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales, the bad guys is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is.

Then you grow up, and you realize that prince charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape, he's not easy to spot. He's really funny, and he makes you laugh and he has perfect hair (:

Sometimes, I hate fairy tales. Haha.

Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. Waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart. For everything to hurt so bad that you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels because I face it before.

If someone is strong enough to bring you down, show them you're strong enough to get up . .
chapter 258 : Blablabla, it's my birthday today!
Its my birthday, today (:

Im officially 19 years old. Im getting old kan? -_- I know. Amilia asked me, do I have plan on my birthday blablabla. Nope. Xda. Haha. Biarlah semua random. So, I can call anyone who using maxis for free. Cool. Tapi I rasa celcom lagi cool kot? 7 days for free! LOL. And wow. Im surprised! Looks like semua org ingat my bday kot? Tiba-tiba tahun ni macam lebih meriah? Haha. Good thing. And thanks to Ivan! He called from Singapore just wanna wish me "Happy birthday".

They sing "Happy birthday" song. Aww. Thanks alot guys. Im touched sekejap? LOL. Semua stress dapat dilupakan sekejap. Haha. Oh, I can see that he is so ego and yeah. Whatever. By the way, sis bought me a birthday cake. Thanks alot, sis. And I cried. Haha. I don't know. Maybe I feel touched kot? But whatever. Everything was great and I had fun walaupun kena kerja? Haha.

Oh, I can't wait to see my honey bee on this saturday :P
chapter 257 : I give myself permission to fall in love again
I am married to Mohd Nashriq ♥ and I love him. Fullstop (:

Like I said, everything happened like so random and so fast. If I didn't tell you anything, it doesn't mean I don't wanna share it with you. Some thing we can share but some we can't. And I prefer you figure it out by yourself.

Don't ask me how, when and why cause everything happened like so random. Gila random okay? Haha. Plus, I didn't expect this thing to be happen kot? But I am glad it happen. Love, I love you (:

"I bangga jadi kawan you". That is what she told me.

And yes, he is sweet :P
chapter 256 : I've met someone that took my breathe away.
Baby, when I think of you, my heart sings a little love song (:

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile ♥

I should post this a few weeks ago but Im so malas kan. So, I decided nak post hari ni (:

I am happy with my life. Life is getting better and I am so glad that I found you, sayang. You bring the happiness into my life and I'm so thankful for that. Everything happened like so random and so fast. Okay, let's make it short, I am so in love with you ♥

I fell in love with the most unexpected person on the most unexpected time. And yes, my heart is for you to keep, baby.
chapter 255 : Watcha sayy?
Incident 1.

In the lift. I was standing right next to Jessica. I am holding my purse and my phone. So, I nampak Shasha, Alia and Syarina tgh text. Maybe sms their boyfriend kot? The content of the text must be like this,


Kot? Hahaha.

Jessica look at me and ask, "You tanak sms jugak ke?"
And I go LOL-ed! Hahaha. Yela, dalam lift tu semua org tgh text kot? Oni me and Jessica je standing like a wall kan? Haha. Funny. Nope. I want him to rest (:

Nothing much la today. Just I had an issue with my exec. Like fcuk gila? Okay fine. Today I stress. Fullstop. I dun wanna talk about it. Shhh. I said I dun wanna talk bout it la. Pekak ke? == and today, I went to formspring and WOW? Hahaha. I think someone is stalking me? Haha.

And I think I know siapa punya kerja. Cause they way she talked, I dah boleh agak. Haha. Fcuk you! Kau dari dulu sampai sekarang.. X penat-penat kan? X habis-habis nak jealous dengan aku. Kau, dengan kawan-kawan kampung kau tu, boleh pergi mampos. Plus, I dont talk to kampung people like you. Pathetic. Haha. And I tot benda ni semua da over since high school? Lame lame. Yela, orang kampung kan? Berdendam jela keje kau orang ni. Haha. Whatever. Im not gonna entertain your question anymore. Soalan kau semua boleh masuk dalam recycle bin kat desktop aku ni. Hahaha.
chapter 254 : Happy birthday!

chapter 253 : Do this and I will give u a kiss.
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know
26. DON'T lie to her
27. DON'T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK.
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Don't EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.
36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back.
47. Give her your coat if she's cold.
48. Write letters on her back with your finger.
49. Let her sit on your lap.
50. DON'T poke her hard, but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL.
53. Keep conversations flowing. Talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionately and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneak up on her and hug her from behind.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don't ignore her or be nervous around her.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go.
chapter 252 : Hello, Miss me?
Uhm. Hi. Hello. LOLs. Uhm. Kinda weird here. It's kinda long I didnt touch my blog kot? LOLs. Uhm. Mood nak update blog tu ada but idk la. Everytime I nak update je, there must be something yg ganggu. So it kinda spoil my mood to update. Hmm. Hahas (:

Well, I had fun. Seriously, I miss my high school's friends. I really miss you guys. Bila nak hangout wey? Haha. Oh that day, I lepak with Wida. OMG! OMG! I miss youuu okay? HAHA. I met her at TimeSquare. Firstly, I just wanna pei her and lastly we end up shopping kot? LMAO. I had fun. Really, I miss my friends. Ariff joined us too. So yeah. Best la jugak. Ariff went missing like WTF? Faint. Gedik okay? Haha. So, the next day, I should meet her at BB. Megat gonna join us but then, I cancel it cause "something" happened (:

So.. So.. I met Nashriq. He's nice and we oni slack for a few hours. We talked. Of course la kan? Haha. Uhm. What else? Oh, me and my sis went to museum. Haha. Gila nerdy? Ada pameran keranda so we went la. Seriously, x scary langsung. Haha. I will upload the pictures later. But it's good la cause you will know zaman dulu-dulu dia buat keranda macam mana blablabla. So, you guys dah pergi? Pergilah. 2bucks je kot per entry? Haha.

Kerja? Hmm. So far so good. Pergaulan pun makin okay kot? Better than before la. If dulu malu-malu kan? Haha. But one thing yang x best, uhm.. I just joined The Star. So, it's been 2 months and this month gonna be my 3rd months. And the confirmation just around the corner. Last appraisal pun so far okay. I oni have 2 appraisal. Cool x? Haha. But the thing is I feel so unfair la. Like come on la. I baru keje kot? So what do you expect from a new comer kan? Plus this is my first time in office line kot? They expect more from me. Yeah. I know I am giving my best now but xkan semua keje I nak buat kot? Haha. They said I have the potential. Okay, thanks. But still, banyak lagi benda kot I kena belajar? And I need time kot? Sigh. Okay enough dengan luahan perasaan tu. LOL!

Next month, Im going to seminar, 26th June kot? Not so sure. Well, I hope it will be fun la. Tapi tatau la cause dulu diorang cakap memang best? Cam worth it la (Y) But see how la. Oh yesterday went to TTDI and I had ikan bakar for lunch. Yummy yummy. Thanks to abang Zabidi. But still, semua orang bayar sendiri. Haha. I tot he belanja dowh =_="
and one more thing, that pervert dah x kacau I lagi. Nice. Hee. So now I boleh buat keje dengan selesanya. Haha. Boys memang pervert kot -_-

And OMG! On this sunday, Roslina nye wedding. Haha. OMG! OMG! Terkejut kot? LOL. Btw, gratz la. Im happy for her. Kawan kahwin kan. Hee. Oh yeah, a few days ago I went to Amilia's place. Gila bosan so I decided to lepak with her. We talked bout relationships, love and facts. Haha. And I found "something". LOL! Every morning ada je cerita nak story dekat Alia tau. Haha. I close dengan dia kot and Shasha (:

Nowadays, I less audi. Oh. I dont wanna talk bout audi. So the topic is close ya? AND AND, my birthday is ON THE WAY, 13th May! Haha. So excited. LOL! So far, xda plan pape pun on that day. Amilia give me an idea, lepak dekat solaris den yeah, celebrate kat sana and ajak friends blablabla. But I dunno la. Sigh.

I just realise that my life is getting better. I laugh alot and yeah, I feel better kot? HAHA. Seriously, bila I fikir balik, now getting better and I try slowly to move on and Im HAPPY. LOL. Im happy with the people arounds me. They cheer me up and ntahla. Maybe I get used to be sad and I forgot how it feels like to be happy. Haha. Thanks all <3